I think there's a possibility that you're an alcoholic. You either are or you aren't though, you don't just become one or anything.
Is AA for you?
You don't have to worry if you are an alcoholic though, because you can choose to recover if you wish. There are AA helplines, meetings, conventions, literature and addiction counselling available if you you want to recover. No-one can force you though, help is something that you truly want yourself.
Sorry, I only have the UK link at the moment, but if you google it, there is definitely a US one.
Alcoholics Anonymous UK
Please don't worry though, have faith. It's great that you made this post and asked for help, recognising that you might have a problem is a big step in itself. People are available to help you whatever the outcome,
Take care
xo