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Triggering (SI/Sexual Abuse) - Running away
Guess what? I was diagnosed with a mental illness, psychosis! Now there is mor eto add to the madness. Always thought th depression and cutting made me enoughe of a freak, now lets add a mental illness. +sigh+ But at least I got the help that I need, because Ive been screaming for help since I was nine. No one ever believe, no one ever listen. I knew there was something wrong. I mean its not hard to figure out that if you are pealing your skin off your not normal....no offense....but there is point in our life that we always feel like some behavior isnt normal. Take IDK a pedophile, he may like touching a kid but he still know its wrong and scolds himself for doing it, and thinks he is a freak...well at least the pedophiles that have enough a soul to think so.
Well this is how I got diagnosed. I ran away from my house and hey they found me woho!(<---- Notice the sarcasm) well they had to evaluate to why i had runway blah blah blah, so I told they that I was hearing voices and seeing things, next thing you know I was being sent to a mental crisis center. Got stuck there for a week. Now they have me on anti-depressents, anti-psychotics, and sleeping medicien
+sigh+ When will the madness end? When will I be able oo look at people, look into their eyes and say, "Im fine, I swear I like the fact tht I am breathing, honest!" And I wonder that when they find out what happened will they be able to believe me? I want to be looked at like a normal girl, not like I have the word "FREAK" written on my forhead....
And I wonder how can I tell my future and curent children everything that has happened? How will they react towards it if I do?
Last edited by DeadXInside : 09-02-2008 at 08:31 PM.
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