I started cutting myself less than a month ago. Since then I have read hundrets of articles, stories, posts that all say the same thing : S.I. is bad and you must stop! My question is....why? Why do I have to stop? I'm not doing anything serious, my cuts aren't deep or anything and certainly I'm not planning on killing myself. So why do I have to stop if SI makes me feel better (actually is the only thing that allows me to relax) ? I don't get why people think it's that bad...The only person I've told is my ex-best friend who started hitting me and calling me an idiot. If only I could make her stop worrying about me...
''Everything will be okay in the end. If it's not okay it's not the end.''
You need to stop because no matter how under control you think your SI is it won't stay like that.
You say you've only been SIing for a month, and while that's not good in any way you're probably not too far into the cycle to stop it.
Honestly, if I'd known how bad my cutting was going to get when I first started I would have tried everything to avoid it, but 7 years later it's proving stupidly difficult to stop for a week, let alone ever.
You have to think about what it'll be like in a couple of weeks/months/years time when you have scars that you have to try and explain away without anyone getting suspicious. Having to cover up all the time and always being scared that someone will find out. It's not exactly the best thing in the world.
There are so many other things that you can do, in order to avoid SI, go for a run, read a book, make a brew, do something less harmful to release whatever you're feeling to make you want to cut, punch a pillow, try the ice thing, whatever.
I think deep down you probably know why you should stop, no matter how much any of us on here try to convince you that you should stop it has to come from within you.
Please, please try and stop before it becomes a habit and you actually really can't do without it. If you stop now it will just be a blip, something that you did a couple of times and got over it, if you let it carry on it will get worse and worse and eventually it WILL take over your life.
There are people on here who have been SIing for years and years and they will tell you how bad it can get. But one thing's for sure, most people here are trying to quit, and that alone should tell you something.
Sorry for the essay
PM me if you want a chat or anything
Claire x
"I've learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel. Make us all feel wonderful. We'll never forget."
I asked a similar question on this board not long ago and got some good answers.
Claire is right that it will get worse, it never stays at the same level as SI is an addiction. One person replied to my post and explained that harming yourself is not a natural thing to do and therefore it means that something is not right for you. It is not a 'normal' way of coping with things.
That's all i have right now as if i'm entirely honest i'm still struggling with the question myself right now.
Life breaks most of us in the end, but afterwards some of us are strong in the broken places
~ Ernest Hemingway
I agree with what's said above.
It may seem okay right now, I thought the same thing when I first started my SI. I was like "this works, and it's not so bad". It does get worse, because eventually you cut deeper. You need a greater release, and unfortunately you start cutting more often.
It's just really dangerous, if you slip (I know you're thinking "oh but I won't") it's very easy to catch a vein. The longer you go on and keep cutting, the more difficult it becomes to stop.
It becomes a problem, an addiction.
Please don't keep self harming, stop before it starts taking control of your life.
Oh thank you for the replies guys! I really apreciate it! I think the first thing I must do now is to start wanting to stop because right now...I don't really want to stop. I can't imagine my arms coverted in blood yet but as you all said it will happen someday if I continue.
''Everything will be okay in the end. If it's not okay it's not the end.''
agrees with all aboveness.
also, im not criticising ryl in any way at all.
but i joined not long after i properly started cutting on a regular basis, and i think being surrounded by people for whom cutting was the norm kind of reassured me that i wasnt doing anything weird or abnormal.
so basically im just saying take care of yourself on this website, and dont let yourself get caught up in it and stuff. if youve been cutting for a month, then you can stop this if your strong enough.
take care of yourself...and reading back i dont think this actually makes sense =/
but ill post anyway (:
agrees with all aboveness.
also, im not criticising ryl in any way at all.
but i joined not long after i properly started cutting on a regular basis, and i think being surrounded by people for whom cutting was the norm kind of reassured me that i wasnt doing anything weird or abnormal.
so basically im just saying take care of yourself on this website, and dont let yourself get caught up in it and stuff. if youve been cutting for a month, then you can stop this if your strong enough.
take care of yourself...and reading back i dont think this actually makes sense =/
but ill post anyway (:
I wouldn't have started cutting if I was strong but reeeeeally thank you for your good words! (My mum is sitting next to me right now. God bless that she doesn't know english or she would have thrown me out of the window by now)
''Everything will be okay in the end. If it's not okay it's not the end.''
