Lame, Lame, Lame

[MrsJacks]

Today I had one of the worst days I've had in almost a year. Nothing triggered it, I just sort of woke up this way. It was bad. I could not force myself to do anything. I slept until three this afternoon and laid on the couch staring at the ceiling until eight-thirty. I tried to distract myself and make out a grocery list and I couldn't even get through that. I couldn't write in my journal, get on here, eat, drink. Nothing. It just pisses me off. I've come so damn far and worked so hard to try and overcome crap in my life and it's like it doesn't matter. I'm still going to fall prey to these random "attacks" against my emotional and mental stability and for no bloody reason! And it's not like when I lived on my own and could hide away. I have people in my life now who need me and I need them and they have to see me like this, or sit around and speculate why I haven't been around. It's just so aggravating and I needed to vent.

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I hope writing that out helped you a little bit. I think you just need to be gentle on yourself and let days like that passby without getting angry. Everybody has days when they feel like doing nothing, as long as they don't happen to often try not to worry. I'm sure the people in your life won't judge you for taking the odd day slow, at least you got up, that shows that the will was there.
Please take care.