Triggering (Suicide) - Wondering ...?

nikki1922 · 05-02-2008, 02:15 PM

Is sucide attempts an addiction. ? Whats your opion ..Because if I have in my head to kill myself, I HAVE to at least try ot do something to ease my mind off it.

sopranonut · 05-02-2008, 02:51 PM

I don't know. I might be interpreting you wrong, but you ask if suicide attempts are an addiction. I'm therefore interpreting that you really don't want to die, only attempt? Deep down that may be the case, all though you may not realise it. In which case what is really going on is very dangerous self harm, as overdosing etc. can be self harm. Therefore, it can be very addictive yes, especially if it helps you recieve help that you need and it's the only way you know to communicate your needs.

I 'attempted suicide' many many times over the years, although i think now that most timmes i did not really want to die, just harm myself and occasionally cry for help.

I'm sorry if i've got you completely wrong, in which case just disregard this!

More importantly why are you feeling like killing yourself? Has something happened recently? Please please don't do anything to kill or harm yourself seriously, you can get past these thoughts without it, there is always a way, even if it doesn't seem like it at the time.

Please stay safe. *hugs*

nikki1922 · 11-02-2008, 01:01 AM

anyone else?

alwaysyourway · 11-02-2008, 01:58 AM

i think that the idea of suicide can be quite addictive, once you've desensitized yourself to the idea of it. i don't know you to be able to speak for you but sometimes i find it pretty comforting just to know that i have it as an option, when things seem out of control for me. and when i start thinking about it, it can be almost hypnotizing, its an easy thing to romanticize without realising the reality of what it means.
do you have therapist? if not then you should at least think about mentioning it to your gp, it's clear that you're really struggling at the moment.
take care of yourself
xx
just to reiterate what sopranonut said, it might seem impossible at the time but there is always an alternative to suicide. you could try treating the compulsion in the say way as the urge to self harm and use some of the distractions techniques on this site?

Yttrium · 11-02-2008, 02:02 AM

I think the feelings that drive you to feeling suicidal are overwhelming and not easily got past. Which is similar to addiction I guess.

It's a desire like addiction too, so it feels very similar, and quite often both are fuelled by similar self-destruct impulses.

But there are differences I think. For me there's no 'high' to suicide attempts, it's just an expression of a desperate desire to make the pain stop and no other way I can think of achieving it than ending my existance. The reason this becomes an attempt rather than a suicide is because I know that however bad I'm feeling suicide is wrong and because of that tiny bit of hope that says maybe things will get better one day.

So I don't think it's an addiction it just feels similar?

I don't know if that helps.

Helen

nikki1922 · 11-02-2008, 11:13 PM

I do have a therpist and doctor ( physc ) and been in hosptail. It was just a question on my mind for along time. I find i have to listen to sucide songs or read something that involes it. I am not sure why. Maybe I do it for attention , like thats the only logical answer that comes to my head, but I mean why would i put myself through so much pain I experince.?..When i think of dying , I Really do 89% of the time then the other 11% to live through this depression and stand above all. Thats why I think maybe its to get rid of this recurrent thought for another couple months , till i need that thought to be seddled...? Sorry ...Just kinda sturggling with it.

nickia · 12-02-2008, 01:11 AM

for years i attempted suicide and at the moment i attempted i really did think i wanted to just go on and make it better for everyone including myself....i am not saying this is your situation but i just want to share my experience and the outcome so maybe it will help you.....I actually kind of agree that it can be a addiction in the way of getting the point across in a severe way...atleast with me it was a cry for help....I was screaming in all my actions for someone to please listen and care...when all along people did care but just didn't know what to do because of my behavior and actions----everytime something bad or traumatic happened in my life I would try to talk it out but didn't have clear enough thoughts to get my feelings out in a way that anyone could understand....I have come to the realization that i have to take care of me and not depend on everyone to lift me and help me work out things they don't even understand.....I now try to deal with my issues by writing instead of attempts to end my life...or i find sites like this to try and help others....my advice to you is when you feel this way ---- try in everyway with all you have to distract yourself and i promise it will get easier - if you just focus on anything but yourself for just a few min...it will give you the courage you need to get yourself thru it......
my last attempt left me in icu with a tube down my throat and 3 kids without a mom for a long time... --i hope this helps - life is so hard...i finally decided my problems wasn't gonna stop this world but i was hurting the people who love me --- i still have plenty of issues but i am praying i never lose control like that again....

keep ya head up :)