I started self harming when I was 13, and I did it for a few months becuase of problems at school, then people found out, and teachers got invovlved and my mum and dad demanded to see it, then they realised it was text, sooo they took away everything sharp i had, and i got cravings but they stoped eventularly, even when i got everything back, and i haven't done it since, but a week ago i broke a glass cup in my room, i picked it up and saw it was sharp and i dunno why i just strated doing it again, but then i started to realise things that i jsut didn't before which makes me want to do it more, such as what a failure my mum thinks i am, and how crappy my school is and stuff like that, any advice?
Well number one you not worthless no one is...and im sure your mom doesnt think that of you! and im happy you lasted that long with Self harming so good job on that... but now i would if i was you maybe go to someone you trust? or try and not do it? like you did before... i hope i helped a little good luck "hugs"
Well, self-harm is addictive and just like any addiction at a moments notice those feelings can come back into play. And with that bring about all the emotions you used to feel when you self-harmed more. I know that isn't advice really. My advice is to talk to someone you trust so that it doesn't start a pattern of self harm again. You aren't worthless and you are special and beautiful in your own way.
The Thing We Fear Most, Is What We Want Most
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But that's the thing i didn't want anyone invloved, the teachers advertised it practically around the school, i got "special" watch for a month, and i have the fact that i may or may not have a "Psycriatic" condition on me record, when i am fine considering my IQ is over the national average, they just make a pigs ear of it, and i'm too scared to go to the one person i trust with it, i mena i dunno what they will think of me, how pathetic i must be for doing this giving in to some crappy urges, i am meant to be the strong sensible one but well that's gone. I just dunno what i can do, i mean is it possible for me to work this out with "myself" sorta thing
heya,
recovering cold turkey from self-harm is pretty impossible. everyone slips up at some stage. it's not something to be ashamed of, it's something to learn from and grow from. you're not a failure or pathetic at all. trust me we've all been there, you're not alone.
dealing with all this on your own, as i'm sure you can see, is very very difficult. a problem shared is truely a problem halved. no one will think badly of you. everyone has problems, everyone has issues. getting help with them just shows how brave you are, and that you're human just like everyone else.
stay safe
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Don't worry about blips on your record - I had a friend who didn't sit her 5th year (Scotland) and did her Highers in 6th year instead. She also applied to do medicine that year and, despite having been in psych hospital the previous year and still attending day programmes, she got offers!
However, this doesn't mean to say that it doesn't matter that you've started again.
How did you deal with these thoughts before? And if they're new then question where they're coming from.
I'm not saying this is what you're doing but when I stopped and started again I found myself making excuses to sh. Be careful that you're not just addicted to the thrills that come from it.
You've mentioned that the school didn't deal with it in a way you were comfortable with. Could you go and see your GP then? Just let him/her know that this has started again and you're worried about X, Y and Z and what do they recommend? If nothing else you'll get support from them and they won't be able to say anything to school unless you're a danger to yourself and/or others.
Keep your head up
sSx
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