Triggering (SI) - i just can't seem to speak.

[ashleighbean]

ever since i told my mom about my SIing, everyone thinks i am doing so well, and part of the reason they do is becasue i keep telling them that it is awesome and it was the greatest thing ever, and it really wasn't that awesome. yeah it was good that i finally told my mom, and the day i told her i thought i could tell her anything, but now i feel like i am back to the same spot i was before i told her. i am cutting almost everyday sometimes more than once in a day, andi am hiding it from her. i feel like a failure, and i don't want to upset anyone. it sucks. and i just don't know how to speak.

[tamobhuuta]

it can be harder i've found to cope once things appear to have improved. i guess it's because things change much slower than we or other people might like. that doesn't make you a failure, kk?

[silentgirl]

hey there
I know what its like and i know what you are going thru.... i cant talk to my mum about anything nemore.
silentgirl

[GrimmFaerieTale]

I know what you mean, it can be a lot harder to live up to the 'doing-really-well-you' than to the 'not-doing-well-you', but you can get through this. You are NOT a failure, you're just struggling at the moment, and that's okay, you're allowed to struggle, you're allowed to fall. Just make sure you let yourself pick yourself up, dust yourself off and try try again - you'll get there. If you're finding it too hard to speak at the moment, try writing a letter to your mum. Even if you don't give it to her immeadiately, you've got that option there for you to help you with that difficult bit. Good luck xXx

[ashleighbean]

thanks.