Hi...

[courtneyeli2008]

Hi..
My names courtney
Im new
I am a "recovering" cutter
Meaning I havent quit but im giving it a real good try
I have noticed that doing it by yourself
Is extremly hard....
im sure you know where im coming from
I start counsoling next week or the week after
and Im very frightened
I dont like the idea of someone i dont know, interogating me...
But i know it need it
Also, im an 18 year old screw up.
My parents disowned me
i now live with my grandparents..
i dont have too many freinds..
life kinda sux..
also my other site i used to go on for help, is now not working for some reason
which ruined my entire week..
oh well...
wel thats the run down about me...

[Spoons]

theres an introduction forum to introduce yourself on, but anyways welcome to RYL. Hope this place helps you out.
Pm if you need anything

Well done for trying to fight the urges, that takes alot of strength.
Im sure your not a screw up, hopefully you'll get loads of support here

[courtneyeli2008]

Thanks

[mesmerized.]

Hey Courtney. Firstly, welcome to RYL :)

It's great that you're trying to stop self-harming, it's okay if it takes time, that's perfectly normal. But keep going, keep trying to find things that will help. And hopefully counselling will really help you. I understand that it's scary, and there will probably be a lot of questions, but they won't be interrogating you, they'll just want to help. And I hope that with time, you'll be able to open up to them and work through some of this.

You're not a screw up, you're just dealing with a lot at the moment. But you're not on your own, we're here for you. If you ever need someone, feel free to PM me anytime and I'll be more than happy to listen. Take care of yourself xo

[Cazki]

Hello Courtney welcome to ryl. Im really glad to hear that you have counselling soon. I do know where your coming from when you say you find it difficult to do it by yourself. Thats understandable. I cant begin to imagine how difficult things have been for you. Im really sorry that your having such a difficult time. Well done for trying to fight the urges though. Im really proud of you! Your doing really well!

We are all here for you and we all care about you so much. We will do our very best to support you for as long as you need it. Please post as much as you need to. Have you though about/tried distracting yourself? You could try posting on the fun and distractions forum, watching a movie, doing jobs to keep you busy or writing down your thoughts and feeling.

If you did decide to write down your thoughts and feelings then id advise you to make sure that you dont just write down negative thoughts and that you try to write down postive thoughts. Counsellers are quite good although not everyone finds counseling helpful. It is quite common to feel scared so its understandable for you to be scared. Also counsellers will not judge you either. Try to keep calm though and take deep breaths.

Take care best wishes Ian xxxxxxxxxx

[courtneyeli2008]

yeh...
Thanks for the support
Probably the most i have gotten in awhile
besides on my other site
which i cant get into
its driving me insane..
Oh well
Thanks though for supporting me