Triggering (Suicide) - meh

[littleone]

i can't do this any longer. i don't think i can carry on. i have cried so much in the past few days and i never cry. i'm sick of crying when i don't know why i am even crying. i have no future plans. i have nothing. the only thing to get up for is my job and even then i work minimal hours and i wouldn't care if they fired me cos they're all shit. and i have to wear some shitty tshirt tomorrow to promote some new products. how can i explain to them that no i can't wear a tshirt. im never going to be able to wear a fucking tshirt. i can't do this any longer. i am going to fail my exams. and then there's nothing. the one person i could talk to im probably never going to see again after my exams as he was one of my teachers. he was the only person who listened to me and actually seemed to care. and now i have no-one.

i really can't take this

[FlightlessBird]

*hug* Hang in there hun. Suicide is never the answer. You can wear longsleeves under your tshirt...I do that a lot. I know life's a b*tch and then you die right? But life has its more positive points as well and one day you'll see. You have all of us if you need to talk. PM/IM me anytime if you need to talk.

[Mirabelle]

Hold on. *nods*
It seems really awful right now and I know how exhausting it can be but hey, the good thing is, when it's that awful, it's bound to get better.
Wearing a long sleeved shirt under your t-shirt is an excellent solution which shouldn't cause any problems to your boss.
If your job makes you feel so down, I'd advise you to quickly look for something else. Sometimes just a change of scenery can help.
And so what if you fail your exams? I'm sure there are plenty of other possibilities offered to you. Maybe you can even take them again?
And if you really have a good contact with this teacher, why should you just not see again? I've kept in touch with my favourite teachers.
Don't let yourself drown, you have plenty of alternatives to suicide. I'm sure plenty of people would regret you and I'm sure you want to see what life has in stock for you. Life is what you make it, even if it throws crap at you.
You are the one in control. So use it. Ask yourself what you want in life and work towards that.

[xxhappydaysxx]

Sorry you feel so bad, i know its hard, but you need to hold on.
Exams are horrible, ive just had loads, but they may turn out better than you think, and if not there are other options. Right now you are more important than exams. You can keep in touch with your teacher, you have built up a good relationship, so he'll still be there for you.
take care, PM me if you need someone to talk to,or just want a chat. xxx

[Shambles]

Crying is good for you. It can make you feel crappy and insecure, and possibly weak at the time, but in the long run it is healthy. Honestly.

Like the others have said, try wearing long sleeves under the top, or maybe make up to cover them up. It's worth a try.

Maybe if you have exams, you need to concentrate on them and not work anyway. Talk to your boss, and see if you can have a wee while to do that?

Take Care

xxx