Triggering (SI) - a big ole kiss and hug and who rah

Rain Keeper · 29-01-2008, 01:26 AM

cause i can do that.
cause I am having a crappy day.
cause things arent working out.
cause i didnt remember
cause she loves me

cause she loves me

cause she told me she loves me....even though i had another ACCIDENT.

cause i am her mommy

she loves me

because she tells me i am the best mom EVER

no no hun..you are the best daughter!

I am in deep crap,
Rain

blondiebear · 29-01-2008, 03:28 AM

I don't understand. How can I help?

kedda · 29-01-2008, 08:24 AM

hey Rain, i'm not exactly sure what is goin on but can i just tell u something?! from a daughters point of view, i can be angry at my mum for a lot of things but damn girl, she's my mum n no matter wha she has done, wha she is doin n what she prolly will do i will love her UNCONDITIONALLY. trust in what ur daughters says is EXACTLY how she feels about u because she chose to be born to u! if she thinks ur great then accept her love! take care x

Pomegranate · 30-01-2008, 08:02 PM

hey Rain, not quite sure what has happened but your daughter sounds lovely. *hugs* Hope everything is ok x

Rain Keeper · 30-01-2008, 10:11 PM

I know it is hard to understand. I cannot write out what needs to be out. I have worked so hard on hating myself. Hating everything about me. And then my daughter of 10 speaks and says how much she loves me. How she is sorry that the "knife was put the wrong way and caused a cut" ( WE ALL KNOW THIS ISNT WHAT HAPPENED) How now I have "matching scars on my arms. How she wanted to hold me and let me know she still loved me because I am her Mommy.She kissed MY forehead and said she wanted to feel the stitches. She wanted to help fix me. And that she loves me (as she extends her arms out) THIS MUCH and that NO cut is ever going to make her not love me.

She doesnt know the extent of her words. She doesnt know the extent of my self pain/ injury. All she knows is that I gave birth to her. I provide for her and that she "loves me everyday all day"

I do have the best daughter in the world. She cheers me on...as I cheer her on. She is there with a kiss a hug and a big "way to go mom!"

I just wished she did have the best Mom of the world.

blondiebear · 31-01-2008, 03:04 AM

You're trying to get better. That makes you an awesome person and an awesome mom. You're reaching past your problems to see what a beautiful child you have.
Look at what a loving daughter you have! You're taking care of a child and doing it very well to have such a sweetie!

Merc · 31-01-2008, 10:13 AM

FRainy, I'd take what she says at face value..you ARE amazing, you ARE lovable.I wish i could get thte damn words to come out but my head is all a mess with something thin gs happenig at once that im a bit useless right now.
*Throws a frog at you*
love ya
romp

Lora · 01-02-2008, 07:29 PM

You're daughter is right hun, you are an amazing person, i wish you could see that, you must be a great mum or you wouldn't have such a fabulous daughter, she does have the best mum in the world
keep fighting hun
love lora xxx

Seraphsigh · 02-02-2008, 02:47 AM

We often think that children are mistaken in their idealism. It seems to me that we're the one who are mistaken. You have given your daughter the ability to not just love you, but to show her love and express her feelings. That doesn't come from just any mother.
Take Care

xoxoxoxo