so if anyone read my post before, i talked about how i have a crush on a really close friend who is a girl. I talked to my friend Nick for advice. He had the same problem last year. He's also bi-sexual and liked the same girl, but now they're really good friends. So I talked to him about it to get some advice. He said I should just tell her because she is one of the most understanding people on the planet. He also gave me this advice while we were all drunk.
So I told her...while we were both drunk. But we were still coherent. And Nick was right. She was very understanding and said she suspected for a long time anyways. She said even though she may not feel the same way, it has nothing to do with our friendship. Nothing has changed for her and she doesn't feel awkward at all. So I'm glad things are ok with us. I couldn't stand losing another really close friend.
But when I was hanging out with her and a bunch of friends today, I was very quiet. And some people kept asking me if everything was ok. I just felt very vulnerable. Like everyone knew my secret and it would be talked about. I know it wouldn't be because my friends aren't like that at all, thank the heavens. But when everyone went to bed, I went back in her room and asked for a hug. I just needed one. She didn't hesitate and asked me if everything was ok. I just said sorry for being quiet and awkward all day. she said she didn't notice. I almost started balling right there on her shoulder but I saw her roommate in the hallway so i just left. i'm so confused on how i'm feeling right now. and I feel like no one can help me. we're talking online right now. she said she doesn't feel awkward at all but she senses that I feel awkward, which makes her upset. So I think everything will be ok. I just feel like a mess.
