Triggering (Suicide) - i really don't knwo what to do anymore

[Phoebo]

ok so ihave a little problem i currently have my own flat but the thing is ever since someone tried to break down my front door i am terrified to stay there seriously i am and its made me think thatmaybe i am not ready to be living on my own but i feel like such a faliure i'm desperate to ask my parents if i can move back in but then i know they would probably say yes but be extremally unhappy with it and probably use it against me when they are angry

the other option althou not sure if its really an option is my sister is moving out in a couple of months and she said theres going to be a spare room thing is she said my bro could have it but hes not so keen but i am hoping that he won't so i can ask if i can stay there althou to be honest i don't think she would really want me there

i just am so unhappy the way my life is right now and i know i will not survive it i am seriously considering suicide right now because i am not happy and i have no life

one other thing i could do is trying to find someone with a spare room who wouldn't mind a lodger but then i dunno how to do it plus i'm on benefits which puts alot of people off and i dunno just want things to be different

[Love_Wombat]

Sorry for you, have you tried just talking to your parents to see if they have any advice for you, or maybe look for a shared house with some students or something they are advertised online all the time. Like you said you do have options you are in a tight spot now but you can make some positive steps. I would talk to the parents and see what they sugest you do. Take Care.

[Pomegranate]

Do you have a counsellor or anything hun? They are probably used to helping people work through things like this but also might have some practical advice re finding somewhere else to live. *hugs* Hope things get better soon x

[pedro]

download the sound of a large dog barking and play it when any1 tries any thing to your door, call the police inform them of the problems your having and they can put you on file as a priorty call, have a weapon of some sort handy some large batteries in a thick sock can really hurt someone, install a couple of chain locks on your door, get some amonia (cleaning fluid) put some in a small container like a washing up bottle and if any one manages to break in your door while there trying to get through the chain looks a couple of good squitrs fromthe washing up bottle there not going anywhere givingyou time to lock your self in another room / call the police or escape out a back window. ( i dont condone or advise any form of violent attack calling the police is the best) good luck.

[pedro]

ps alternatly get a large dog like mine (pictured)!!! he quite likes burglars and often eats a whole one.....

[my inner battle]

^^ now THAT is advice!!