Triggering (SI/Sexual Abuse) - dreams are too much, they wouldn't notice

[Liar.]

i hate sleeping, because i keept on having these dreams. Sometimes its me getting beaten up really badly, and when i wake up im crying and can actually feel bruises coming and sore in the places where they 'hit' me. Sometimes its him...but those times when i wake up...i feel nothing, like im numb. theyre horrible. but i cant not sleep. im exhausted all the time even when i do sleep because of these horrilbe dreams.
i dont know how to make them stop.
it's killing me, because im killing me because of them.
I try to stay away from this place as much as i can because i feel like im adding to everyone problems by asking for help or advice but i just dont know what else to do.
im going for a while again. i dont think anybody noticed last time so it doesn;t really matter.

[Stellata]

It sounds like your dreams are really giving you a battering. That sounds rough. You're feeling them on all levels.
You're not adding to our problems here. You matter.

Dreams have a way of working through our feelings when we're asleep. Maybe you push away your painful memories during the day, and so they're coming out whilst you sleep.
You've been abused, and you need to cry. You've been hurt and you feel pain and sadness. These feelings are coming forward when your mind is quiet during sleep.
But that doesn't mean you have to continue to suffer.
You can use these dreams as a tool to treat yourself with gentleness - when you wake up from such a dream, you can hug yourself and reassure yourself that you're safe now, and noone's going to hurt you any more.

It really also might help, if you're not having any support already, to look into seeing a counsellor or psychotherapist to explore the feelings and memories that are haunting your dreams so much, but in a safe place.

[bloodletting]

i agree with the above...your dreams are a safe place for your mind to work trhought the trauma you have suffered, it might be an idea for you to acknowledge the abuse you have suffered in your waking moments and try to work through these memories with a professional, you've been hurt so you need to give yourself time to heal.
ask for as much help as you need..people are here for you hun.

[Spoons]

your not adding to anyones problems sweetheart. People will give advice if they feel they are able to, never be afraid to post. It takes a while to settle in but dont be upset im sure you were noticed. Some people come and go so its hard to keep track of everyone here.

On the dream front, i know how horrible they can be. Im sorry i dont know how to make them stop. Maybe talking through the issues that you dream about? do you see a psych or anything?
I used to have horrible dreams and id wake up more exhausted than when i went to sleep. I also had bruises but that was because i was flailing around so much in my bed when i was sleepng i was smacking up against the wall and my bedside cabinet. Id always have bruised wrists, i even awoke with a black eye once, dont ask me how i slept through that, i have no idea.
im sorry i cant be much help, but i you want to talk or anything just pm ok.