hi
i not feeling good.
have been gradually feeling worse am now to the point where self harming is constantly on my mind
ive tried to contact my therapist but shes not around.
i want to stop myself getting worse and i dont want to get back to the old me
i must stop it now
but theres noone around to help.
i also feel very ashamed.
i have a beautifully baby who i love very much.
i feel its wrong for me to be like this
It isn't wrong for you to struggle hun, and it is normal to think of SI, especially in stressful times but you CAN beat this. Lean on us and let us give you the emotional support you need rather than SI.
Take care
Emma x
i relly dont know what to say but i know when my nieces and nephews were babies just holding them would help me get past the urges i hope you get through this.
heylo sweetheart.
everybody struggles from time to time. do not feel ashamed about this.
you have been doing a great job of looking after your child...and looking after yourself.
as you know alcohol is a depressant so perhaps if you try to cut back on it you might feel your mood lift a little which in turn will help you cope a little more.
you know you dont have to go through this alone. no body will judge you for asking for a little help.
if u cannot prevent yourself from selfharming then please please try for the sake of the child.
i hope u wil be ok.lots of lve xxx
Sweetie please don't feel ashamed, everyone struggles from time to time its nothing to feel bad about. Hang in there you can and will get through this. We are all here to support you through this. Take care
Kat xxx
"Recovery is something that you have to work
on every single day and it's
something that doesn't
get a day off."
Struggling is just part of life. You will get through that in time. You're so fortunate to have a baby you love.
Sometimes when I'm feeling awful, I make a gratitude list, a list of things I'm thankful for, at least five items. Even things as mundane as air conditioning.
Hugs!
My husband is my best friend.
In forgiving others, we are not exonerating them. They may not deserve exoneration. Rather, in forgiving others we are giving up our anger over the fact that what happened is not what "should" have happened or that our life is not the way it "should" have been.
If your boyfriend attacked you, get someplace safe! For your baby as well as you! You and the baby are both worth taking care of.
Please let us know how your're doing?
My husband is my best friend.
In forgiving others, we are not exonerating them. They may not deserve exoneration. Rather, in forgiving others we are giving up our anger over the fact that what happened is not what "should" have happened or that our life is not the way it "should" have been.
its not as easy as that.
i love him
He can be one of the nicest people you'll ever meet
he just gets a bit angry sometimes and lashs out
he did really scare me this time.well he does every time.
he grabbed me by my wrists and kept hitting me against the wall.
i tried to phone for help at one point and he cut the phone line and grabbed me again.i knew then i mustnt struggle just let him carry on.my baby boy was asleep upstairs and i didnt want him to wake.
Its my fault for upsetting him.
afterwards i collapsed and he held me in his arms and said he loved me and he was sorry
i didnt want him near me i was hurt and crying my eyes out but i still loved him
Hunny I know you care about him alot but what he did wasn't right. No one deserves to be treated like that, including you. Please at least think about getting out of there, if not for your sake but for your little baby boy instead. Well done on getting through last night as well. Take care and i am only a PM away if you ever need to talk
Take care
Kat xxx
"Recovery is something that you have to work
on every single day and it's
something that doesn't
get a day off."
Right. I am going to tell you this now. I don't care if this sounds harsh, it's what NEEDS to be said. If you don't get out of that relationship, your little boy is going to be the one that suffers. You may believe he isn't witnessing it but he is. The longer you stay in that relationship, the more at risk he is. In most cases of domestic abuse in families with children, the children are eventually hurt physically. And even if they're not hurt physically, then there's the emotional part to think about. He'll either grow up afraid and resentful of his father, or he'll believe it's normal. So he'll either end up hurting himself either emotionally or physically, or he'll end up doing what his father is doing to his future partner. I know you don't want to read this, but you need to. Please get away from him. For your sons sake. If not your own. You AND your son deserve better.
I'm not saying this to be mean, i'm doing it to help you!
Among other things, i'm a teacher so...
Here comes an example in the form of a lecture
I have a friend who put up with years of abuse from her husband. Beatings, rape etc...Their children often witnessed what happened. And her son has bad asthma.
Then one day her husband threw their son against the wall. She left with her two small children, one suitcase and less than $200.
Since then she's had money problems. But she doesn't have bruises. Her son seldom has asthma attacks because he doesn't have the emotional trauma of seeing his mom beaten up or having to worry about when would it be his turn.
Her new husband, when he married her, added to the ceremony that he'd take care of her kids, and still does, even protecting them emotionally from the bio-dad.
No one deserves a beating. It was not your fault. Beating your head against the wall could have caused you brain damage or death. It will not be long before he starts in on your baby.
Lecture over. Now here's your "homework." You're not going to like this assignment.
Get out of there NOW. Before he KILLS you or your BABY. Go to the home of a friend. Go to a shelter. Call the police. Take photos of your bruises and cuts and any other injuries.
Please get out and take care of your baby and yourself.
Hugs, Susan
My husband is my best friend.
In forgiving others, we are not exonerating them. They may not deserve exoneration. Rather, in forgiving others we are giving up our anger over the fact that what happened is not what "should" have happened or that our life is not the way it "should" have been.
thanks for your replys.
not been on for a while as my bf broke my pc.i now have a new one.
difficult to talk at mo.
my bf has moved out,i finally got to talk to my psycologist.i have a psychitrist apointment next week.
my psycologist has agreed to talk to the psych for me and inform her whats going on.
me and my bf are having relationship councelling.
its helpful but hasnt changed things.
i feeling really horrible at moment thats why its difficult to talk.
but thanks for taking the time to reply.
i am struggling but at least there are people here if i want to talk.
thanks again
