Triggering (SI) - All over again.

InsufficientFunds · 09-06-2007, 01:51 AM

Damn it. Last night I cut again, I had gone 3 months this time I was so proud. But like the other 4 times I failed again. I tried everything to distract me but cutting was all I could think about. I'm so scared because now I know i'm not ready to stop and I know I won't be able to i'm terrifyed. Everyone thinks this is over, its so not.
I'm sorry I know this is slightly pointless I just had to tell someone and get reassurance I guess.
Thank you guys.
<3

Shimmer · 09-06-2007, 02:41 AM

I know how you feel. I SIed today after 5 weeks. Not fun at all.

But 3 months is so good, and every time you slip up, it is different than before recovery, because now you see it as a...mistake? for lack of a better word. Everything is not lost because of yesterday, reallyAll you can do is get up and try again, and see how well you can do this time, which I'm sure you can do. You can beat this, it is possible.

PM me anytime if you like, I hope you feel better.

coley. x x x

InsufficientFunds · 09-06-2007, 02:53 AM

Thank you so much for not making me feel so alone in this.
I appriciate what you said about me being able to beat this. And I think maybe sometime in the future I could. But the scary thing now is that I don't want to anymore.
I'm sorry if this makes no sense.
<3

FlightlessBird · 09-06-2007, 04:24 AM

Yeah...I SIed yesterday after about a month...it sucks. *hug* You're never completely alone.

meganf · 09-06-2007, 02:17 PM

hey hunni
i sort of know how u feel.
i went about a month with out SI ing then i just did it for no reason. well there was a reason, but we won't go into that.
its ok to have a slip up but i know it is so hard to go through all of this.
take care hunni
PM me if u need to talk