If this is too personal, don't respond. I was wondering if anyone on here has been diagnosed as BPD? I have been reading a lot about disorders because I really don't think that "depression" is what I have, or the only thing I have. I have intense anger among other things that aren't just characteristics of depression. I know only a doctor can diagnose me but I think I fit most of the symptoms. I'm going back to my psych. on Friday and I'm going to ask about this. I also know that personality disorders are not frequently diagnosed because there isn't too much you can do about them. I was just wondering if anyone on here has this disorder and what your symptoms are. Maybe this is too vague but if you have any insight, I'd love to hear it.
I have just been diagnosed with this so its all pretty new to me. but I can tell you what was explained to me about mine if that's any help.
my main symptom is impulsivness. I do things for no real reasons on the spur of the moment. my mood also bounces around for no reason frequently.anger is also one of the major symptoms. little things ca really irritate you an make you feel like killin someone. although due to other problems I have I take this anger out on myself, often in the form of self harm an punishment.
there are also forms of treatment for bpd, although sometimes doctors can be reluctant to try these unless they feel there is a huge risk.
often people with bpd can also go from an extreme high to an extreme low in a short space of time for no reason.
when I questioned my diagnosis, it was stressed that the thing which highlighted it to them is the fact that I could have a perfectly fine day an then with no warning just go home an take a huge od or somethin.
the impulsivness can be dangerous though, which is why I am being monitored.
if you have a psych its a good idea to ask them. they know the signs better than anyone. although be warned that some doctors can be edgey about telling patients their diagnosis.
I have been diagnosed with borderline personality disorder.
I have very unstable relationships, dissosiative episodes, hypo mania/depression in the run of an hour, terrible self image... the list goes on. It's rough love but you can lead a fairly normal life.
It could be some sort of working martyr for my soul searching cause.
well I thought I was right but my counselor doesn't agree. I brought it up just saying that I've been reading alot and I diagnosed myself as this and she just kinda laughed about it. I'm annoyed with her right now anyway. She expects me to just STOP CUTTING like it's so easy to do...errgh. I think this needs to be another thread, perhaps under VENTING!!! I hate counseling!
get a new counseler! not to undermine any1 s credability im sure shes a nice person and perhaps very competent at ther job ,but from what your describing there doesnt fill me with a lot hope ( i shouldnt judge from a few sentances) aand as aboiut symptoms as every 1 described above the impulsiveness ( i gamble for a living) irrational thoughts and very quick mood swings i think patrick bateman puts it best
"There is an idea of a Patrick Bateman; some kind of abstraction. But there is no real me: only an entity, something illusory. And though I can hide my cold gaze, and you can shake my hand and feel flesh gripping yours and maybe you can even sense our lifestyles are probably comparable... I simply am not there."
i quite like this one to
" I have all the characteristics of a human being: blood, flesh, skin, hair; but not a single, clear, identifiable emotion, except for greed and disgust. Something horrible is happening inside of me and I don't know why. My nightly bloodlust has overflown into my days. I feel lethal, on the verge of frenzy. I think my mask of sanity is about to slip. "
I have some of the characteristics of a borderline. My psych helps me treat the depression. And I have ongoing counseling to deal with the rest of the issues in my life.
Seems to me like you need a different counselor. Sometimes it takes a couple of tries before we find someone we can worth with.
My husband is my best friend.
In forgiving others, we are not exonerating them. They may not deserve exoneration. Rather, in forgiving others we are giving up our anger over the fact that what happened is not what "should" have happened or that our life is not the way it "should" have been.
hey hun, i have several diagnosies, one being BPD and i just want to say THERE IS SOMETHING YOU CAN DO ABOUT IT, YAY!
I am half way through a course of Dialectial Behavioural Therapy (DBT) which is specifically designed for ppl with BPD, this therapy has changed my life and i am now 8 months self harm free.
However, you have to put in the work to see the benefits, and its bloody hard work!
Good luck!
Mary
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"Yesterday is history, tomorrow is a mystery and today is a gift, thats why its called the present!"
I just don't know how to stop seeing her. I mean what do I say? I hate the whole idea. I don't like counseling and I always feel terrible afterwards. Today at work I really wanted to cut because I was talking to someone about some of this stuff going on at work and then I remembered what my counselor said and it just was all crazy. AAAAAAAAAAAH.
You can just tell the couselor that you would prefarre to see somebody else as you feel that things are not moving how you want them to.
Alternativly, if you think this would be too hard, perhaps speak to your GP who maybe able to change your therapist for you.
