Struggling

[thegirlwiththemask]

I stopped selfharming a month ago but I'm starting to miss it. I know that must sound odd but I do. I get so angry for no reason, I can be sat watching a movie one minute and the next I'm ready to deck someone or hit something or normally its cut. I want to cut so badly but I dont want to get caught again. I've already got people watching me and its driving me mad. I dont know if i can make another month without cutting.

[BlackRoseImmortal]

You've done really well with your one month hun, and I know exactly how you feel.

I'm sorry to hear you have these urges, just try to distract yourself? Read a book, listen to some happy music?

Take care xx -hugs-

[jdpasino]

do you know why you keep getting so angry out of nowhere? can you talk to anyone about it? maybe if you write about it that might help....i'm here anytime

[88shelz]

you have already done so well going a month! congrats on that!
take each urge as it comes and try deal with it.
i know its easier said but u can distract yourself from this.
think of the achievment you will make.
how proud u will be when u realise another month has past and u havnt cut again.
please try stay calm and chat away here about why u might be feeling this way.
take care xx

[_plastic]

*hugs*

It's not something weird to miss SI everyone misses it as it the way to cope from stress and emotions you can't face .
I've been there - just making excuses for myself to cut , making fights to depress myself so i can find an excuse to cut ...

Please hun keep fighting 1 month is a GREAT achievement you can make them 2 !

x

[thegirlwiththemask]

I started cutting and now I dont want to stop I just want to go deeper and deeper. I dont know wot to do

[88shelz]

please try and stop it...deeper is not safe...
do your cuts need medical attention?
please seek attention from someone if it is what you need.
why did u feel the need to cut just now? xx

[thegirlwiththemask]

So much is goin on and I dont know where to start. I give up

[88shelz]

please do not give up petal/.
im concerned bout u and im gonna stay here and keep talking to you.
how r ur cuts doing?
xx

[thegirlwiththemask]

there ok. sort of wish they weren't tho

[88shelz]

please dont wish things like that.
i know u r having a hard time at the minute and im defo gonna be here for you to talk to,.,.,along with marie.
you deserve so much more and i wish you would see jsut how wonderful you are. u dont need to do this to yourself. xx

[thegirlwiththemask]

I wish I could believe that. But atm the only thing I cna believe is that Im a failure in everything. I haven't felt like this in a long time. I'm angry constantly tho no-one can tell. All I think about is cutting and I cant make it stop, and now I cant stop myself from doing it

[88shelz]

you can stop urself...
be strong hun,
u can dotis

[thegirlwiththemask]

I dont know if i want to stop

[thegirlwiththemask]

I cut again this morning and still it just doenst seem deep enough. Im so confused nothing is making sense

[88shelz]

u reli need to go tlk to your doctor.
u seem in a reali bad place now.
i hope ur cuts arent bad hun...please try resist the urge of cutting more..xx

[thegirlwiththemask]

Its all i can think about tho.

[88shelz]

i know. its hard to break the train of though.
you need to distract yourself somehow.
is there no way at all you will talk to your doctor?x

[thegirlwiththemask]

I've been before they dont do anything. I saw a counsellor yesterday and she doesnt do anything just tells me to write on some sheet how I feel.

[88shelz]

go back to the doctor...tell them that things arent getting any better.
its reali **** how they treat ppl at times.
try think of all the reasons you shouldnt cut and focus on them x