oh god *trig*

[broken promise]

i just dumped my b/f via email cos im pathetic and hes talking to me on msn being really nice, saying he'll wait for me to get better. i eneded it cos i still love my ex fiance who i was with for 9 years and cheated on cos i thought i didnt love him. i realise now i do and he's stood by me through so much. he waited for me a year when i went to hospital, i went off sex for two years and he never even looked at another woman. now i want him back, he says he still loves me but can';t trust me. we live miles apart but speak on the phone 3 times a day. i cant convinve him i wont cheat again. the one i dumped says he really loves me and i feel really bad fior ending it. i dunno what to do so im just getting drunka and really wanting to hurt myself and eat and eat and eat

[Bleeding4hope4life]

*Hugs hunni* Sounds very confusing. But you'll figure it out. Drinking and hurting yourself arn't the answers. You can do this sweetie. I know it's hard. Love is one of the most confusing things we have to deal with I think. Wish I had better advice. But hang in there. You can do this! pm me if you need to talk.
*Hugs*
Rissa

[sparklyshoes]

Sweetheart you need to get better for yourself. I'd still keep them as friends as its obvious they care a lot about you but if you aren't feeling right now you need to concentrate on getting better. You won't find happiness in eating, at the end it will only make you feel worse. x

[zowie]

I agree with Sharlie, you need to get better for yourself. Do that before worrying about them; they obviously love you enough to understand and they want you to get better too. They both sound very understanding, and I can see why you feel so confused right now; but you need to take a step back from the situation and look after yourself.
They will understand, and they will stick by you. Keep them as friends, and when you feel ready to tackle the situation you'll have a clearer head and maybe a better idea of who you would feel happiest with.
x

[broken promise]

thanks guys *hugs*

my ex fiance is coming to stay next week till thurs and the other one i have agreed to be "on a break" with cos i cant bear to lose him. he doesnt know i still love my ex, he thinks i'm being all heroic and protecting him from my illness...i feel like i'm cheating on them both. i am glad i get to be friends with them both though but i know i'll lose one of them when i finally decide (if my ex decides he can trust me)