Hey. First of all, don't do it!!!
Yes, I know, that's basically what anyone would say to you in this situation, but that's a good thing, right?
I have a couple suggestions as to how you can keep your mind off of suicide. The first and most obvious is to talk to someone about it (if not someone you know in real life, then try clicking on the Live Help-Online button at the top of the screen, and talk to a professional). Secondly, try doing something constructive. I don't know what your hobbies are or what you enjoy, but whatever it is, immerse yourself in it as much as possible. For instance, if you enjoy gardening (lol
), garden as much as possible. Thirdly, if you know you are vulnerable to suicidal feelings/actions, get someone you trust to get rid of any potential items you could use to attempt it, and get this person to stay with you until these feelings dissipate. I know this is the hardest one of all, because obviously if you're suicidal you're not going to want to cut off your only means of doing it, but let's face it, committing this act is not going to make anything better for anyone. You are loved regardless of whether you feel like you are or not
