Giving up?

[Starless_Eyes182]

I dont know if I should quit s/h anymore. I went almost 2 months until last night when I cut again. And now I just can't see any reasons to quit anymore. I honestly can't think of a single one. I've simply stopped caring how much I hurt myself and other people. I know it's selfish, I'm selfish, but I just don't know how to cope without it.
I don't think I even have the ability to quit in all honesty. This whole year has been dedicated to trying to stop. And each time I've failed.

I don't know if anyone else is going through this right now, I guess I just want to know if this is all worth it. If this is all worth giving up for..

[behindblueyes]

I went through this a lot, i really did. I did not think that I was going to ever be able to give up self harm, and it was not worth all of the pain and struggling.

Now I am over a year free and I can tell you that it is all worth it. I still have battles, but being free from SH is a great feeling. There is no more lying and no more hiding, there are no more questions being thrown at you. You will feel such a sense of accomplishment when you do it.

But also keep in mind that the road is not an easy one. You are going to have downfalls, but you CAN get right back up from them. Slip ups are so common and I am a true believer that they are a part of the recovery process. Going almost 2 months is an amazing accomplishment and you should be so proud of yourself. And just that proves that you CAN do this, I know that you can.

Take Care of yourself my dear
x Kate