i keep heariing someone telling me that everyone wants me dead and they want to kill me. And its true. But i am gonna kill myself to save everyone else from doing it.
This person(i only hear them, i dont know who it is) is persuding me to do it and they are going to help me because they are my friend and they assure me its gonna work.
I dunt know why everyone wants me dead .. i just dont
i have planned it out. i just dont know wat to do. i feel so crap and everythings a mess
Update:
First, im really sorry im asking for more help. i realy am.
But. i went to see my psych today. and im nto allowed on medication UNLESS i bring my mum along so she can look after the medication as there is a risk of me o/ding, which i have NEVER done on psychitaric medication. Which is tottally out of the question. She calls me a loony for **** sake. And im not allowed on medication because i drink and take drugs ONCE A WEEK!
Also, he wanted to talk about my relationship with my mam, which i really dont have the energy for.
So to conclude, im not allowed meds unless i bring my mam which isnt gonna happen, i dont go to CAMHS anymore unless i get another referal. Theres a chance i can get medication of my GP but i dont think he will perscribe me it.
Im supposed to have a think.. but really. theres not much i can do.
so im supposed to deal with this all on my own. I told you he wants me dead :|
x
oh and he said i probabaly cant get refared to the adult service cos im 9 months too young
Another update:
Wwent to see my GP, and hes put me on aripiprazole and lamotrigine again, so hopefully things will get better. Im going back in 2 weeks too, and i can ring him when things get bad. My friend is looking after my meds and giving me one a day. It went well. Im glad :)
Last edited by Ami : 17-01-2008 at 08:06 PM.
Reason: update
Sweetheart, nobody wants you dead, can you call the on-call/duty psych? Please keep taking to us, keep safe, is there someone you can call to be with you right now? xx
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It doesnt matter,, you need to act now, please call the psych team,, is there any meds you are taking to calm the voices in your head? Can you remove all the nasty things around you that you could use to harm yourself, and chuck them, if not at least wrap them up several times so they take a while to get at.
xx
L_M_G is my mummy :) inkerman and razorbladedarling are my two non-identical twin sprogs (concieved on same day) Scabette< cos she has the cutest puppy dog eyes and i cant resist!feeling-afraid< my bottle of glitter!! which i just have to have :Pmidnight stars< my gorgeous sister, whom i love to bits ;) Dance With The Fairy< *star*gazing*buddie :] Broken-Fairy is my partner in crime ;) little_miss is my real life saviour PaperClip is my stationary queen
If your prescribed it, you need it,, I am pretty certain that is why your feeling like this,, its an antipsychotic,, right?
I know you feel like you cant take it,, but you HAVE TO AND NEED TO. If you cant take it you must speak to a professional now.
If you call a and e and ask to speak to the on call psych they can usually call you back,, I think thats how it works.
Please keep safe xx
L_M_G is my mummy :) inkerman and razorbladedarling are my two non-identical twin sprogs (concieved on same day) Scabette< cos she has the cutest puppy dog eyes and i cant resist!feeling-afraid< my bottle of glitter!! which i just have to have :Pmidnight stars< my gorgeous sister, whom i love to bits ;) Dance With The Fairy< *star*gazing*buddie :] Broken-Fairy is my partner in crime ;) little_miss is my real life saviour PaperClip is my stationary queen
Ami,
I'd take your meds I really would. And as Surprising Mystery said it'd be worth contacting the on call psych. Or just turn up at the hospital. My sister went to James Cook once after an OD and the on call psych team there were lovely to her, so there's no need to be scared. Please just reach out and ask someone IRL for help.
Accident and emergency is at the front so 90 degrees from the road, right in the middle, next to the ambulance bays, you cant miss it.Your over 16, so no they wouldn't if you asked them not to.
look after yourself
xxx
please dont act on it you know im always here for you to talk to, go to a + e theyll help you there and take your meds what your hearing isnt real it seems real to youbut it isnt. takecare xx let us know how your doing
