Triggering (Sexual Abuse) - A man in the corner of my room.

[pixie*lyssie]

I think he's back, I dont know but last night I saw him standing in the corner of my room, it was dark and I was in bed and he said the strangest thing to me. The only thing he said to me was "Through the other side of raping" I dont know what it means. I've been trying to work it out ever since. Isn't it a strange thing to say?

I am diagnosed with paranoid schizophrenia. I think it means something I dont know. I have no clue what it means and it's confusing, am I being paranoid? It's hard to ignore this. But something like that, it's too wierd and... well... creapy. Btw I have never been raped.

I'm sorry if I make anyone feel uncomfortable or if this is too much information. But I feel kreeped out by it.

Lyssie x

[pixie*lyssie]

I'm gonna call my keyworker to see if she can move this whole psychiatrist thing along.

*Cuddles.*

I have had hallucinations that I won't go into here, (people stalking me, not just paranoia), but if you want to talk in pm or msn I'm here for you. They are really scary.

I have recently seen a psychotherapist type thing, and it is really interesting to think about what it means, not as in that people from nother world really are communicating with you, but why your mind is coming up with this. For instance, what strikes me is maybe you feel you have been assaulted - raped - by your illness, and your mind is acknowleding you are out of hospital etc... but of course even if the rape is over, as any rape victim will tell you, there's still a lot to go through.

[plastic rose]

Hallucinations are common in people with paranoid schizophrenia. I know it's VERY scary. Have you spoken to your doctor about the hallucinations? it's important that they know? Are you on any medication yet?

I really hope that your doctors will be able to help. I'm sorry I can't give you much useful advice, I haven't been in that position personally, but if you want somebody to talk to feel free to PM me. x