Triggering (SI/OD) - just rambeling *may trigger abuse*

[little_unicorn]

i dont know if this is the right place to put this but i need to get this off my chest and i dont know where else to go. today was such a bad day. it started last night when i had really bad flashbacks to what happened. i could feel them touching me and inside me....no matter what i did i couldnt get rid of the flashbacks. i eventually got to sleep but had really bad sleep because i kept having nightmares about what happened.

This morning i woke up and felt s**t. i went downstairs and mum started on me and kept refering to me as "it". i just went downhill fast from there. i came so close to taking an od. i had everything out ready and sorted my stuff out so noone would have to do it afterwards. i couldnt stop crying all day. i txted my bf and he tried to help but i kept getting so angry at him. i told him what i was planning and he asked me not to. usually this would be enough to make me think twice but it didnt. it made me more convinced it was the right thing to do. i tried to cut but it didnt make me feel any different.

although i dont feel as suicidal atm im not feelling right...still feel like im on the edge. ive been to see my bf and i felt a bit better while i was there but now im back home im getting close to how i was this morning. i dont know what to do.

sorry for going on

[Cazki]

Hello there im so so sorry for the pain that your going through you dont deserve this at all. I cant begin to imagine what you are going through. We all care about you so much and none of us want anything to happen to you. Please hang in there. Does anyone else know about this? Have you got anyone else who you could talk to?

We are all here for you and will do our best to support you through this difficult time that your going through. No matter how painful the situation is kiiling yourself is not going to solve anything. I know that when your going through a painfullly difficult time that its really hard. But please dont give up ok. Please keep talking to us and posting here. Im very sorry to hear that you have been having flashbacks this must be very frightening and extremely difficult for you.


Please take care Best wishes Ian xxxx

[idontwantnomorescars]

hey sweetie pie sorry you're not doing so good right now. you can make it through this but you will need will power.

i'm so sorry about what happened to you it should never have happened and you deserve it in any way at all. perhaps talking to some one about this if you dont already might help you? but only if you feel up to it.

please stay safe hunny people care about you and so do people here on ryl keep posting on here and we will help you through this rough time ok. you will make it through the urges will pass. *hugs you very tightly*

[Disturbed_Aggresion]

im sorry the world is making you feel down, but i want you to know im here to help just like everybody else on this site.
It sounds like your mom doesnt always take your feelings into consideration and just puts you down, and thats so wrong and heartbreaking.
but this world wouldnt be a better place without you, Especially with a BF to help you get through this life struggle, i hope hes there to support you always.
If you ever need to just talk, im always here

[Stellata]

How are things looking this morning?

[jdpasino]

*hugs*