Triggering (Suicide) - Sorry

[hopeless]

Honestly now, i can't cope with my life anymore.

My best friend has fallen out with me yesterday, she knows what i am going through, at the moment, how much i have to deal with. And still she had to say all of that, she could just have keep it to herself.

My mom, must have three more chemotherapy's, normally she just would have one last, but it seem to be worse now.

I'm getting bullyied at work, by my own boss. Maybe i deserve that.
I will stop ranting now, i'm sorry.
I really wished, i never would have been born.

[beautiful_disaster]

Sorry to hear you're feeling so rubbish at the moment. Please don't feel sorry about posting, it's what we're all here for *hugs*

It does sound like you're going through a tough time at the moment, but things will get better. I don't know what your friend said to you, but it's clearly hurt you. I just wanted to share something similar that I went through a few years ago. My best friend (my only friend at the time, as I'd pushed everyone else away) who I told everything to completely betrayed me, even though she knew how terrible I was feeling. At the time, I thought I'd never get through it, she hurt me so much and I felt so alone. But things got better with time. Now I have the most wonderful friends who I feel completely comfortable with.

As for the bullying, nobody deserves to be bullied. You need to try to tell someone about it hun. Don't think that it's your fault.

Take care of yourself xxxx

[Sugar and Spice]

Beautiful Disaster is right, nobody ever deserves to be bullied. Even though you feel as if you deserve it, you don't. No one does. Tell someone from the union about it or another colleague. With the worries and concerns you have in other areas of your life you need to get this one sorted.

I know it is hard losing a friend like that, but friends come and go. It may sound harsh at the moment, but it is true. Things will start to look up and you will get more friends, you just have to hang on in there until they do.

I am so sorry to hear about your mum, that must be incredibly difficult for all of you. I wish you all strength in this dark time

[godessofpain]

dont be sorry for posting hun.

i know how you feel on the best friend front, everyone i have ever got close to and felt i can trust has walked away from me and betrayed me. its tough at the time but you will get through it. you are better off without a friend like that, you need real friends.

my mum also had cancer so i also knowe how youre feeling there, seems to go on forever and evrytime you take a step forward you end up taking another two steps back. its reallt tough but you have to try and stay strong for her. she needs you by her side through this.

have you told anyone about the bullying? its really not on you know. maybe you can go higher than him and get it sorted?

im here if you need to talk about anything hunni.

*hugs you*

pm me anytime xxxx

[katkinb]

sorry to hear things are tough hon, hold in there, sending you a huge hug!
kat x