Triggering (SI) - i think (unfortunately) the time has come....
to say goodbye.
My head knows it...but my heart doesnt believe it yet
right now , at this stage of 'recovery' this place is poison for me..it takes cutting/burning/ODing too easily...it almost makes it normal.
Now 4 years ago...i NEEDED this place...i was a mess (still am at times) but i do know :
"i'm not at that place anymore. it is actually causing me to harm because it is so acceptable on here...ppl understand.
but it's a fine line between a 'recovery' site and a 'pls help me feel okay about it' site...I wouldnt want to be the one who decides all that.
Harley, you have created a lovely site.i thank you for your time and patience in doing this..i always wonder WHY you do it...no one is that altruistic. You have made your share of mistakes/poor judgement...as we ALL have at one point or another. Still i thank you, i believe the original ruin/recover honestly saved my life...all the ownder ppl who im going to miss so much, whom i can feel tears weelling up over this goodbye...
I will be about for another little while, so if anyone wants to keep ctc (not saying anyone does) pls PM me your email/MSN addy ok?
There's toooooooo many ppl to thank them all properly here..
but i do...i thank everyone of you...and i will miss you.
I will post (maybe) updates accasionally...but not for awhile.
I was on the right 'road' to recovery and then something terrible happened, i came on here to post about it and suddenly all i could think was harming....and unfortunately, i did in a MAJOR way..ive done some serious damage :o(. NOT saying that is the sites fault...just that what happened to ME. No go at the site or anyone. Im just not strong enough (yet?) to fight for recovery and still be involved here...im sorry to all those i let down...
much love to you all
i'll really, really miss you...pls send me some addy's lol
Rompy, as much as it pains me to see you go, it brings me great joy to hear about you being on the path of recovery. I know i rarely post in Vets Ser, but when i saw your post in Gen, i had to come.
Take good good care of yourself Lady, because by god, you deserve it so much.
I am gutted. My stomache has knotted. My heart sinks. But I understand. It is not the same.
You have been a dear friend. I will miss you. But am glad you are moving on and not going the other way.
Frompy, my frog loving friend- Thank you. For everything.
A friend in spirit I will be by you always as a whisper in the wind.
romp, i completely understand your reasons but i will still be sad to see you go. i'm glad your leaving for the right reasons though, sounds as though your feeling rather positive about recovery, i hope you do succeed.
May you be blessed and safe as you continue your journey.
My husband is my best friend.
In forgiving others, we are not exonerating them. They may not deserve exoneration. Rather, in forgiving others we are giving up our anger over the fact that what happened is not what "should" have happened or that our life is not the way it "should" have been.
BOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOBIES!
I had to shout that one last time :P
Yuo are doing the right thing. When it gets too triggering and you no longer crave the triggers then its time to move on.
You will be missed.
Loads of loves and naughtiness
Matthew xxx
~Phoenix~ is my Little Sister of Awesomeness and Self-Delusion :P Bitter Angel is my Mitten Animad is my Top Trump All Im Living For - Is my beautiful and special daughter who isnt called Kim but will moan if i dont add her :P
romp, you have my msn, and i do want to keep in contact, you're one of the first friends i made on RYL. if you can't face coming back to the site to post an update, i'd be happy to post on your behalf, i'm sure there are lots of people here who would like to keep up to date on your progress. love you lots sweetie, mand x
Mand, South Wales, Full-time working, single mother to 2 scarily independent girls.
I AM A PROUD PLUMERIA SISTER
Good luck 