Triggering (Suicide) - I Cant take it anymore, I just dont know what else to do :(

[mandi_the_fallen_angel]

I want to end my life... I cant take all the pressure and stress and my family always being disappointed with me, i cant take it anymore. I wont!. I have been dealing with anxiety and depression for 7yrs! and i am sick of it. Ill never be happy, and i hate my life. I have gotten into alcohol and drugs, and its no way to live my life. i dont go to school which makes my parents soo disappointed in me.

Everynight before i go to bed i pray i dont wake up, cause i cant deal with another day, i want to end my life, i have to. It would be the best thing for everyone.

I wrote a suicide note last year, my parents found it and made sure i didnt go through with it. But this time, im not leaving a note, i dont care what they think. I need to leave this chaos, my parents hate me, my brother doesnt care. I would be happier dead.

[jdpasino]

i know that you are feeling this way now, but it will get better! please don't kill yourself it's not worth it...keep on posting you'll always get a reply...*hugs* i'm here

[tearsofgold]

Hon, i know life seems shit right now, do you have a thearpist or anyone you can talk to about this?
Suiside, is never the best opion hon, it sounds like you are still very young, try to focus on the things that you still want to achieve in life.
Take care and feel free to pm me any time
Hugs
xXx

[idontwantnomorescars]

hun please dont go through with anything so many people care about you even if thats not what you think.

i've been in a similar situation not that long ago but look i made it, and you are going to as well.i may not have had depressiona and anxiety as long as you (i've had it for 5 years) but i know how bad it can get. it wasnt that long ago i also was seriously trying to take my life but all the wonderful people here on ryl helped through it, and i know they will do the same for you.

i know family puts a huge strain on you, and i also feel like my parents are always disappointed in me especially now i dropped out of school in my senior year, but you have to be happy and satisfied with yourself and not worry about your parents , you live the life hun that you want to live.

i also went down the road of drugs and alcohol and its a good thing you want out of that because that messed me up a lot more than i ever thought it did. it doesnt solve anything just creates more problems.

i also think that my parents hate me, well actually my whole family, but deep down you must realise this is not true, it is possibly your depression making you think that. your parents obviously dont hate you hun they stopped you from killing yourself, if they hated you they would have let you go through with it.

stay strong hunny you can make it through this and things will get better hopefully sooner rather than later. if you want to talk feel free to pm me anytime

[mandi_the_fallen_angel]

Thnx everyone i am feeling alittle better, Thanks for all ur support :). But i just dont know how long i can hold on. But ill try

[ScarlettAngel]

hey hun, im glad your feeling a little better. i often feel shit like this, like there is no way out... but with friends (including everyone on recoveryourlife) who care and are there to support you through these times, it makes living possible. we're all here for you, just post anytime you feel the need to!
take care hun, merry christmas!!
oxoxox

[idontwantnomorescars]

keep hlding on hun you can do this

[mandi_the_fallen_angel]

Thnx :)