I just don't know what to do. Im alone in my house and i think about suicide very seriously.I mean i would rather die now that i hate my life and everything is pointless than when i love my life and i wouldn't want to die.
I felt like this yesterday too but i didn't do it because i wasn't ready to put an end. I called my psychotherapist yesterday and she told me that she will send me to a psychiatrist even though she doesn't want to, if i think about suicide seriously but i don't want to, so i promised her that i wouldn't do it. She made me promise that because she said that she can't live with the fear that something may happen to me.
But right now i feel so **** and i wish i could do it but i made that promise.
I don't know what to do.
My RYL family:
I-used-to-be-positive is my big sister razorxkissedxwrists is my mommy alyssa.star is my sister phoenixflames_forever is my cousin concreteangel, helpmydeath, xxbeckyxx and queer fringe are my little sisters bob--says--hi is my twin
hey hun sorry things arent good for you right now i was feeling the same way the last few days you may notice my thread on here.
if you are alone right now ring someone and talk to them and dont stop just talk about anything and everything just distract yourself, if you have no one to talk to you can always pm me i will be on here for a while longer.
i'm sorry i cant offer much help. hugs you tightly and never lets you go. stay safe please
i used to feel the same way for a long time that i would rather be dead then alone. I do think its really good of you that you are honuring the promise you made which shows a lot of strength. Right now you really have to take each day as it comes and use that strength and at the end of it all you will be so proud of yourself and really pleased you gave yourself a chance, trust me. Take care of yourself and PM me to let me know how your doin.
Hi hun. How are you feeling now? I've been there to, and it is possible to get through this-really it is-i promise. It will pass. If you are still feeling **** then can distract yourself by doing something nice like some baking or painting your nails or whatever you usually enjoy.Please post on this thread to let us all know you're okay.
im better now.the thoughts are still here but thanks to that promise i won't do it.no matter how much i want to, i won't.
My RYL family:
I-used-to-be-positive is my big sister razorxkissedxwrists is my mommy alyssa.star is my sister phoenixflames_forever is my cousin concreteangel, helpmydeath, xxbeckyxx and queer fringe are my little sisters bob--says--hi is my twin
My RYL family:
I-used-to-be-positive is my big sister razorxkissedxwrists is my mommy alyssa.star is my sister phoenixflames_forever is my cousin concreteangel, helpmydeath, xxbeckyxx and queer fringe are my little sisters bob--says--hi is my twin
omg these thoughts are here again.i heard that there was an accident somewhere in another country and that many people died and i just wish i could be one of them.i am so selfish.these people didn't want to die and died, no one asked them.im so f***ing selfish.there is too much misery i don't want to get through this.i want everything to end right now.
My RYL family:
I-used-to-be-positive is my big sister razorxkissedxwrists is my mommy alyssa.star is my sister phoenixflames_forever is my cousin concreteangel, helpmydeath, xxbeckyxx and queer fringe are my little sisters bob--says--hi is my twin
i don't know why im so sad.nothing bad has happened, nothing. im the problem. im so selfish. all i think about is me. i post here my problems which aren't really problems but a waste of time. the other people have problems and all i do is waste your time. i can't do anything. all i want is to put an end. i can't take this much longer. im sorry for wasting your time.
My RYL family:
I-used-to-be-positive is my big sister razorxkissedxwrists is my mommy alyssa.star is my sister phoenixflames_forever is my cousin concreteangel, helpmydeath, xxbeckyxx and queer fringe are my little sisters bob--says--hi is my twin
Irene you aren't wasting our time your problems have as much value as anybody else's you aren't selfish it's good that you're reaching out for help....keep on posting here don't do anything to hurt yourself we all care
i just don't know what else to do.i will go on vacation tomorrow to a place i don't wanna go but i have to coz we will go as a family and i can't say no.my parents think i wanna go coz i used to want, a couple of months ago, but now i have changed and they don't know that.there, there are people who love me but i will be depressed and i will let them down.i have to pretend im happy when im not.
all i wanna do is die.not just because of the holidays, but about everything.i don't wanna be in this misery anymore.
My RYL family:
I-used-to-be-positive is my big sister razorxkissedxwrists is my mommy alyssa.star is my sister phoenixflames_forever is my cousin concreteangel, helpmydeath, xxbeckyxx and queer fringe are my little sisters bob--says--hi is my twin
what is going on to make you feel depressed? i know what it feels like to have to pretend you're happy for the people around you....it kills you slowly inside....don't do anything to yourself keep talking about how you are feeling....
my psychotherapist asked me to tell her my dreams, and what i want to do in my life but i didn't know how to answer.i have no dreams.also im not sociable at all, i mean when im with friends i just sit there and don't talk coz i don't have anything to say or if i have, which is rarely, i don't say it either, coz im afraid of what the other people will think of it, etc.
My RYL family:
I-used-to-be-positive is my big sister razorxkissedxwrists is my mommy alyssa.star is my sister phoenixflames_forever is my cousin concreteangel, helpmydeath, xxbeckyxx and queer fringe are my little sisters bob--says--hi is my twin
you'll be fine, just take the vacation one second at a time ok. i know its hard to pretend that youre happy around people when that is so far from how you're feeling on the inside but i know you can make it through
