Triggering (SI/OD) - It's gone

Quark · 19-12-2007, 03:14 AM

I broke my 2 years again, well I guess you can't break it twce, but I thought it would be a one off and now I've done it 2, 3 maybe 4 times again. It seemed so much easier to hide it the first time around, guess I was more gothy back then and it wouldn't look out of place for me to wear arm warmers but now it would, plus I'm living with a partner which makes it ten times harder. I managed to make an excuse to get change in the bathroom this evening, I'm too depressed to have sex and now it's even worse because I can't take my clothes off infront of anyone. I was so low this evening I ate dinner alone in my bedroom and popped out 10 ibuprofen but never took them. Don't really know what the point of this post is.. I just wanted to say it.

behindblueyes · 19-12-2007, 04:50 AM

*hugs you*

Take care of yourself hunny. Slip ups are normal so try not to let them get you down. Going for 2 years is absolutely amazing and you should be increddibly proud of yourself, I am!

x Kate

Quark · 19-12-2007, 05:16 AM

I know, thank you. I just kind of thought I might have been over it for good.

LittleBlackRainCloud · 19-12-2007, 10:55 AM

HUgs hunny xxx sorry your feeling so low xxxx

Hatton · 21-12-2007, 04:57 PM

Keep strong,Your just having a minor slip up...... youve gone 2 years that takes incredible strength and you should be incredibly proud of yourself youre strong enough to conquer this and youve shown yourslef that good luck!

Cazki · 21-12-2007, 11:51 PM

Hello there im so sorry to hear that you slipped up. But you can do this we all have slip ups its part of life. Just because you slipped up it doesnt mean that your a failure it really doesnt.

I know its hard to see it this way when your feeling really low after slipping up but pleae dont hate your self or feel a failure. It can all be fixed you can try try try and try again. I know you can get through this i believe in you and i believe that you will get through this. Please dont give up ok.

Please keep fighting through this. We are all here for you ok and we all care about you so much we really do. Things might be lik ethis now but they wont be like this forever. I hope your ok. Please keep posting and talking to us.

Take care best wishes Ian xxxxxxxxxxx

Quark · 22-12-2007, 04:10 PM

I'm having such uppers and downers, for a few hours even a day I'll be fine and then my mood will just switch, this only used to happen when I did drugs and I haven't for years. Hmm... talking bollocks.