I feel really lost and sad today, and a bit off this planet too. This morning at work I got one of the knives from the work kitchen and held it to my head as if I was going to stab myself, but then I managed to talk myself round, so instead I cut my forehead open with the blade. I now have a big cut on my face and I am having to wear my beanie indoors to cover it up
I feel like I am going mad, like I am losing the plot. Tried calling my CPN but she isn't there til tomorrow. I feel like I am a danger to myself, but I am worried about saying anything cos I don't want them to put me in a ward
Well done for talking yourself out of doing more damage.
If you really feel unsafe I suggest going to A&E. They may not necessarily put you in a ward and they can keep you safe and possibly get somebody out to talk to you...
Please consider and try to stay safe.
The only time you will find real light is when you're searching in the dark..
Oh hun, i'm sorry you feel so sad. Zed's right you should go to a&e, they won't necessarily admit you, they might be able to arrange for more intensive support at home such as a crisis resolution team.
Please keep yourself safe.
Life breaks most of us in the end, but afterwards some of us are strong in the broken places
~ Ernest Hemingway
Hello there im so sorry that your feeling like this. I just wish that i could give you a big hug and say to you that everything is going to be ok. I know that you can get through this these feelings of feeling lost and that will past things wont always be like this.
You deserve so much better than this you really do. Well done though for not going through with harming yourself you could have done some serious damage im so pleased that you was able to stop yourself.
It shows that you are capable of getting through this. Yes it will take time but these things always take time. I know its difficult but you can get through this. Please hang in there. I hope that everything is ok. Please keep talking to us and posting here.
Thanks guys, I phoned the Crisis Team and they told me to go to A&E the same as you did. I was too worried to do that because I didn't want to risk being admitted over xmas, and since then I have cut my arm to ribbons. Am going to wait until after xmas and then consult A&E cos I won't mind if I am admitted then.
I've cut my face before too. If people ask you what happened tell them you were in the woods and a branch cut you. Or your dog or cat jumped on you or someone else's did.
I wish you the best
"The weak can never forgive. Forgiveness is the attribute of the strong".
yeh, cutting the face is a hard thing to deal with, but it'll heal, you just gotta lay low for a while? and if you dont wana tell anyone... well, what they dont know wont hurt them.
Matt.
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Bleedingdragon (Dad)
For It's Easier For Man To Destroy The Light With In Himself,
