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Triggering (SI/OD) - What's the next step?
I've been under CAMHs since June, from then until October i was seeing a CBT therapist every week, seeing a family therapist and was given medication. From October until now i've been having DBT therapy twice a week but if anything i've been feeling worse lately. I've had two overnight hospital admissions in the space of a month for overdoses even though i've OD'd more often that that this month. I'm self-harming every day and it's getting deeper and more out of control and going to school is becoming even more of an issue. I'm suppoed to be going in everyday with no pressure to go to the lessons or to compete the work but getting up every morning is getting more and more difficult and i'm spending more days at home spending almost the whole day cutting. I've been given so many techniques that i'm supposed to use when i'm feeling out of control and a phone line to call but when i feel like that i can't use them and everyone is expecting me to start getting better and i feel like i'm on my own,slipping, even though i've got so much support at home, school and from CAMHs. I'm not seeing my therapist until xmas eve and someone from the DBT team was supposed to arange a meeting for this week but they havnt so im obviously not worth their time. Even when i see my therapist i doubt i'll be able to tell her just how much worse i'm feeling because she thinks things should be improving by now aswell. I've got a medication review in the new year and a care review at the end of January but until then i really feel stuck. I just dont know what to do.
Sorry about the rambling
Becky xxx
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