Hi hun,
Firstly I'm really sorry about your dad. Grief is a really hard thing to deal with and its not surprising you're feeling overwhelmed with a big trip coming up as well. You don't have to 'handle' anything- nobody could be expected to just deal with this. Don't be sorry.
Right now, try to focus on keeping yourself safe and getting some support around you. We're all here for you, but is there anyone closer to home you can talk to? At times like this sometimes its better not to be alone to dwell on things. Also, if you felt you would be able to talk about your feeling then a grief counsellor might be someone you could think about seeing. The pain will get better in time, but you need to look after yourself and ask for help when you need it.
Cutting might seem the only option now, but it probably won't feel so great afterwards. If you can try to distract yourself or be around people so you're less tempted it might be better. You're in enough pain already.
There's nothing any of us can say to make things much better, but you will get through this. If theres ever anything I can do, please get in contact, my PM box is always open. I hope things seem brighter soon, stay strong sweetie.
Soph xx
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