Triggering (SI/ED) - losing everybody..

[y a s m i n]

hey
the title basically says it all...last week me and my boyfriend split after a year, he couldnt handle my problems..and we just knew it asnt going to work..he also cheated but i think i drove him to that..
and my best friend of 7 years now doesnt talk to me..i guess i pushed him away as well..they were the only two people who knew what i was going through in terms of my SI and ED.

i dont have anybody to talk to anymore and i feel realy isolated now..its driving me back to being worse..all i want to do is not eat and self harm all the time.i feel like i dont have anybody..

the two people who i trusted more than anyone in this world have walked out of my life and i dont see a way out of anything anymore.

im scared of what ill do to myself, and everyone's left.

i dont know what to do..i suppose i give up

[suicidal~lullaby]

pm me if you want someone to talk to. i am here for you, and anyone thats needs someone to talk to.

[lovely_dramatic]

Hey sweetie. This must be really tough for you. But you can't blame yourself. Your boyfriend was obviously not worth the time, if he bailed on you. And cheating is never acceptable, don't you dare say you "drove him to it."

And as for your friend, that always sucks. Sometimes you end up trusting people who weren't worth your time. If you ever need someone to talk to, PM me!

Stay strong. I'm sending prayers and good vibes your way!<3

[nowhereman]

Hey I've had something like this happen to me and it drove me to depression and si. But you know what, I now have friends and family who care for me so much more than they ever did and I'm much happier. I know everything seems hopeless right now but you can get through this and you will. If they're dumb enough to walk away, be smart enough to let them leave. It's their loss, not yours. Please take care. pm me if you like.

[Cazki]

Hello there im so sorry to hear about this. Please dont blame yourself its not your fault at all. We all care about you so much here at ryl, if ever you need someone to talk to please dont hesitate to pm me ok. Your welcome any time.

I really hope things get better for you soon. I know you can get through this your so strong please keep fighting through this, please dont give up. I really dont want to see you get hurt. I know how you feel iv been there before. Please dont do anything serious to your self.

Your such a brilliant person and you dont deserve none of this. But life will get better and things will change things wont always be like this. You have got so much to look forward to you have a great future ahead of you. I hope your ok please let us know how you are. We are here for you if you need us.

Please take care best wishes Ian xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

[y a s m i n]

Thanks everyone for your amazing replies...you really made me feel strong enough to not do anything to myself...
i do realise that no matter how many friends or boyfriends i lose, ill always have my family around and also everyone here on RYL.

Thankyou.
Lots of love, yasmin x

[smellybelly3]

when i got sick all my mates and i mean all of em didnt want anything to do with me oi needed there help and they left me i now have 2 or 3 rl friends i never go out only to work and i dont talk to them cos im scared if they find out wat happened they will do the same but i now know that the ppl that did stay with me matter and love em sooo much (lov u leon lily octavia) and i found out how important family is i love my family and my new mum and sister more than anything friends come and go but ur family e.g leon lily and octavia for me...will never leave those 3 r now and always will be my brother and sisters

[xXFallingStarXx]

I feel so related to your story bc I'm going through the same situation. I lost every single person I once loved, and that drove me to injury myself even more...
I feel isolated, worthless, and GUILTY, bc I'm sure it was my fault that everybody walked away from my side. ='(

*hugs*

XOXO

Feel free to PM me anytime if you want to chat =)