thank you all for supporting me through the whole surgery ordeal.
and NOW the reason for this post.....
i'll be seeing keith on friday night and all day saturday. he is leaving early sunday. im a bit upset that i'll only be seeing him for a day and a night. but its better than nothing. theyre coming early this year because they are spending Christmas in the bahamas.
the problem im having is that Kelly has 2 children, a 3 year old and a 12 year old. tonight we are putting up the Christmas tree. its so freaking painful. i see flashes of Christmas's past, when Keith and i used to do all this. its breaking me and i dont know what to do.
someone help...please?
xxxxxxx
Last edited by pea soup : 17-12-2007 at 04:41 PM.
Reason: update
oh hun *hugs you* I understand how painful that must be for you doing that without Keith even if it is with other people you care about. I have no advice, I just wanted to say I hope you enjoy your time with him and I am sorry things are so rough at the moment xxx
In forgiving others, we are not exonerating them. They may not deserve exoneration. Rather, in forgiving others we are giving up our anger over the fact that what happened is not what "should" have happened or that our life is not the way it "should" have been.
I'm sorry that you have to spend Christmas away from Keith. Just try to enjoy the time that you two do have together, and let those good feelings carry you through the rest of the Christmas season. Can you call him while he is in the Bahamas? I'm sure you would both enjoy that. Best wishes, and *hugs*
Laura
"I have found the paradox, that if you love until it hurts, there can be no more hurt, only more love." ~Mother Theresa
Hey rachel honey, I can imagine how you feel and how hard this must be for you.
Think about the time you will have with Keith, and let that help you through the difficult times, I really wish I could offer some useful advice, Im really sorry that I cant be more help, but know that Im here if you ever want to chat.
Take care, Love Lora xxxx
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And if the perfect spring is waiting somewhere, just take me there, and lie to me and tell me it’s gonna be Alright.
- Conor Oberst
hey hunny, you're doing it for Keith, to make it special for him, maybe save a few decorations for him to add to the tree, or make some new ones together out of cardboard, glitter and wool or string. mand x
Mand, South Wales, Full-time working, single mother to 2 scarily independent girls.
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I dont know what to do except relish every second he is with you and take as many photos and have as many hugs as you possibly can.
Love
Matthew xxx
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im home now. i had a great time with Keith and my whole family.
i just got back home.
Keith is on his way home and is leaving for the Bahamas on thursday.
it was a wonderful time and a pleasant goodbye.
thank you for all the support.
now i just have to get through Christmas. im feeling ok about it.
Hey hun, Im glad you had a good time, just think of all the good memories Keith is taking with him!
Take care of yourself, Christmas is gonna be hard but remember its only a couple of days then things will get back to normal. You and Keith have had your Christmas together, now its just a case of watching soem good films and waiting for the January sales to begin!
Much love
Mary
xxxx
"Yesterday is history, tomorrow is a mystery and today is a gift, thats why its called the present!"
today is hard. last night was especially hard.
i dont know how to do this.
i miss him so freaking much.
i need him with me so bad.
ive cried until i cant cry anymore.
i really want to harm but i know its only a temporary release.
i dont know why im posting again.
i just really dont know what to do with myself.
im really sorry.
xxxxxxxxxxxxx
i so wish i knew what to say and what to do to make this easier for you buttercup. you know i love you soo soo much and you have all my love. i'm so sorry that having my kids here makes it harder for you. what can i do? you know sweet Kaleb loves you soo soo much and Chenoa too. you are a great big part of our family TOO and without you, i/we fall to pieces. just wish Keith could be here with us too. i'll do whatever i can to help you. you KNOW that! just hang in there for all of us. please. for sweet Keith, me (your baby girl), Kaleb, Noa... your family who DOES love you dearly. it will all get better. it will. the better days will come again. and just think of how much fun Keith is gonna be having down there snorkeling in the Bahamas and all the other fun things he'll be doing. He's in good hands with Robert. you know that. and he's got all the fun memories to carry with him that you and him made this year. you keep them with you and hold em tight. but now we need you too. ok? let's make some good memories of our own. i love you soo soo much!!!!!!!! and i'll never ever stop!!!!!!!
((((BIG BIG HUGS!!!))))
loving you always ... SO MUCH,
your baby girl
I love my Buttercup,
Always and Forever ! My Wife = My Best Friend !
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You don't have to be sorry for posting honey *extra hugs* I hope you feel better soon. I'm sorry I don't have anything better to offer but I will try and dispense hugs on a regular basis if it helps xx
you keep them with you and hold em tight. but now we need you too. ok? 
let's make some good memories of our own. i love you soo soo much!!!!!!!! and i'll never ever stop!!!!!!! 
