One trivial i suppose...but it has me very mad and upset. I have recently alot of weight. I have finally realized just HOW much because i lost one of my rings. We were out somewhere ansd my daughter and i uswed the washroom, washed dried hands, and im almost positive it slipped off in the paper towel...gone forever. *cries* My hubby gave it to me. It was siler with a blue topaz cut in a heart shape...:( I know it silly comaopred to some stuff but its really got me... i guess i should take off all my rings as they are all loose and id hate to lose another...
The second, not so minor...because iof being off work AGAIN, my work has the right to MAKE ME attend an evaul;uation with a 'independant doc'..(read 'hired gun'...he knows who's paying him so i dont stand a chance) My doc is TOTALLY against this as he knows most of them are witch hunts, he has been approached iover the years and offered large sums to 'find out' if the person was really ill enough to be off work....so, this is NOT in my best interest but i HAVE to attend. It is on Dec. 12th...im scared t o death. Howe am i meant to open up to a doc ive never seen before and tell all in two hours, first session with him???!!! It has stressed me out so myuch i ended up SI'ing a couple days ago ...right below the tattoo onmy left forearm....and its obvious as hell as to what it is :(. The tat draws attentionm to it...so ****ing mad on that one...but my own fault, again. so ****ing stupid and weak.
So if anyone wouldnt mind sending soe good luck my way, id really really appreciate it...im reall scared....
Big hugs and best wishes Romp, I know how difficult it is feeling that your employer is against you. Try to imagine that this idiot doctor is someone you trust, just do your best, thats all you can do and unfortunately then its out of your hands, try to look after yourself and surround yourself with people who love and care about you.
Big huggles and much love
Mary
xxx
"Yesterday is history, tomorrow is a mystery and today is a gift, thats why its called the present!"
I'm so sorry about your ring, that must really hurt. You are right about taking the rings off so you don't lose another. Maybe your hubby might buy you another as a replacement?
As for the meeting, you should be allowed to take someone with you. If you can, maybe try and take your doctor. Also, as preparation before the meeting maybe get a letter from your doctor about your illness to take along, maybe also write a bullet point list of your conditions, how they affect you, etc,so you can hand it over and make sure that you don't miss anything out.
If you put your case across strongly enough they won't be able to doubt it, so take these few days to prepare as much as possible.
thank you both :). I have decided not to take ANY meds two days before the appt. ..that should convince him , me thinks...i'll be a wreck ..maybe sneaky, but i have abnother chance at group therapy in January and i just want the time to do this group then i'll go back to work...justt pls, after going on SIX years of fighting to get to get help i think i may just deserve this one break...i hope...
thaks again
luv
romp
(edit to add)..i missed your post terrified they criossed lol! But it says i CANNOT , for any reason, have someone in the room with me whikle the session is going O.o...what atre they gonna beat a false confession out of me and dont want witnesses???? I see my doc today, he forgot to refill one med so iwill ask him if he will write up a letter for me...Im sure he will.
Thanks for the ideas..i have actually been trying to start all this but then iu have to put it away when the "you're gonna lose" demons come out...now is time to fight like hell i realize...im tired of fighting to be honest, but what choice have i got?
Wow. It really is a witch hunt if you can't have any one present.
So I would say DEFINITELY get a note from your doctor about anything and everything. Infact, I don't know if you can over there but can you make your medical records available to them or show them the appropriate parts? And maybe sit with yoru hubby and/or doc and work out the bullet point list if its hard to do it alone.
I know how draining it can feel when all you do is fight, but maybe if you can fight this,you can get your therapy and then things won't be so tough?
good ideas...i see my doc today (aftyer a meeting at my daughters school...so not looking to that, a school filled with teenagers, loud, pushy and just so damned many *shuidders*.
Then off to see the doc...plus i see him the day before i go to this witch hunt. I supopose i copuld ask him to pls send a note stating i MUST have someone with me (hubby) due top severe anxiety...but perhaops its better for me to be ion pieces, maybe it will get him off my back and they'll just leave me alone! I just want help for **** sakes...never dreamed it would take so much fighting....how sad.
FRompy,
Not a good idea to not take meds. I will be there in spirit with you holding you hand whispering words of encouragement. you can do this.You can do this so that you can get the proper help you need. Now in spirit, always with you.
I'm so sorry you have to go through this to get help.
The less you say on the 12th, the less they can use against you?
Lots of Hugs!
My husband is my best friend.
In forgiving others, we are not exonerating them. They may not deserve exoneration. Rather, in forgiving others we are giving up our anger over the fact that what happened is not what "should" have happened or that our life is not the way it "should" have been.
