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A poem that I wrote *request reviews and contains upsetting things*
Damned
By- Darkwings44
I’m am what was
My path is uncertain
For I am at the beginning of the end
As I Look up towards the family up where the dead lay down in the thier beds made of stone
the shattered life of mine fills my mind and my heart
Sharp shards of what was once my life
The shards of abuse and disability that is sharp like words from a father that was craved into the skin by the blade of a knife that scar forever
“Stupid”
“Idiot”
As anger filled hands make marks on my body these words are yours
“Stupid”
“Idiot”
“Why can’t you be normal?!”
“This is your fault see what you made you do”
“this the only way You learn!!”
As your spiteful words made their way into my mind they imprisoned me and made me feel
worthless
Faulty
Stupid
Undeserving of value and existence
As I will always feel even in the afterlife………
The shards of bullies and words that cuts through the skin to the very soul…….
As my skin is cut they spell out your words
“Prostitute”
“Whore”
“HA HA HA HA HA HA HA!!”
“No one loves you” But
Those words and laughter made me feel
Ashamed
Dirty
Bad on the insides
Those words are forever stained in my soul even after my death
I was trapped within my mind and sucked into a vortex of depression
The razors calmness was soon as dead as my insides were broken…
Everyday I was just a ghost with clowns smile and minute by minute my thoughts grew dark as the abyss…
I couldn’t take it anymore
I couldn’t care anymore
About everything and everyone
I needed everything to die
I needed me to die
So down my moms pills they go
As a hand full of pills entered into my mouth I drank a hard swallow of water and then put my music on and slowly went away to deaths door and as I really think about my life and I was really honest about myself…….
I was god damned from the very beginning.
Last edited by Darkwings44 : 09-02-2024 at 08:53 PM.
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