Triggering (Suicide) - i need advice before i do something stupid

riddick · 02-12-2007, 10:27 AM

I have always had a voice inside my head telling me to kill myself. Then i rescently got arested and the voice went into overdrive. All i want is to get my life over with im tired of always wanting to die, but i cant help it i have so much guilt so much pain. i cant tell how long i can take this befoe i just give up completly. I feel like im going insane and i dot know what to do i feel lke the ed is near. Ive lost all hope. Im basically dead inside.

Riddick

Stellata · 02-12-2007, 10:54 AM

What do you feel guilty about? What causes you pain?

riddick · 02-12-2007, 11:04 AM

i got my best friend killed in a car wreck i wasnt driving but it was my fault i make hime drive. Everything i do hurts my family. I dont want to hurt them anymore and the voice in my head wont stop telling me to die. I cant get rid of hime and sooner or later he is going to win.

Riddick

Stellata · 02-12-2007, 11:07 AM

How was it your fault?
I'm sure you've done some things that haven't hurt your family.. Can you think of 2 things? Have they ever hurt you?
This voice in your head doesn't sound very forgiving.

riddick · 02-12-2007, 11:15 AM

I tried to kill myself sophmore tear in hs and now i get areested for bs chargesplus plenty more im just mentally exausted. They have ever hurt me. Its just me causing them stress. The voice just wants me to die 24/7 back of my mind always telling me to kill myself and my psych hasnt for a pill to help it yet.

Riddick

Stellata · 02-12-2007, 11:17 AM

What do you focus on with your psych? Do you talk as well as him give out pills?

pixie*lyssie · 02-12-2007, 01:13 PM

Is there anything you aren't mentioning with your psych? I think you might have a lot of stuff bottle up inside you, you need to let it out, have you tried writing or scribling, straight away when it comes to your mind, then you can show it to your psych and say 'look this is how I was feeling at that moment and this is how it made me feel'.? I dunno sorry if I'm no use, I'm a mess at the moment! hehe
PM me if you like, we can chat, take care.

CoffinNail · 09-12-2007, 06:58 AM

*big hugs*

You talk about how it hurt your family the last time you tried to kill yourself.
What do you think it would do if you tried again and it worked this time? It would probably just make them feel worse. Suicide is NEVER the answer. The best thing you can do for both yourself and your family is fighting your way through this and getting better. You can do this, even if it seems impossible right now. Good luck. =]