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depressed
Ok...so about a month ago i get dignosed with severe depression. I really dont know what to think. As a result ive been seeing my doctor for a few weeks and ive been asked to take part in some study about whether folic acid can help depression. The thing is...i dont really care! All i want is to be happy again...to feel loved again...to have my gf want me like im the only thing left...to get some attention from her...to have my life back that i once had. I feel so left out. All i want to do is cry and be cuddled by her and for her to love me and take me in her arms and comfort me. But what makes it worse is that she thinks im always in the way and that i seem to, prevent her being her. But, i dont ever do that? I would never stop her from doing anything that she wanted to, and she knows that. But i think there is a point...a point where there is having her own time, and then there is just leaving me out. I feel so lonely. If it wasnt for her then i would just give up right now. Shes the only thing thats keeping me going. I really would have packed up my stuff, gone home, never come back, and worked in the factory for the rest of my life. It would be pretty ****, but better than being miserable around here and failing and bringing everyone else down. Im just so crap...i cant even make the one person that i truely care about feel like shes someone and make her WANT to be around me...ALL i want is for you to show some compassion and prove to me that im not wasting my time. Because if i am...please just put me out of my misery. You mean the world to me and i hope you know that, and i hope you feel the same, but if you dont, then youre killing me every day that you keep your true feelings to yourslef. I'd do anything for you...would you do the same? I love you...x
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