I feel really guilty right now! I've been spending alot of time replying to threads tonight "it'll get better" "There are other ways" "It takes time" When I'm seriously hopeless right now myself, I can't believe in the advice I give myself.
I'm so majorly triggered-For everything. But mainly Eating Disorders & Sexual Abuse. I feel so disgusting-like many posts tonight I can feel him-his presence in my skin. I'm crawling inside. I want to cut and release myself but I can't because then there's that disgusting scratch and appearance. Oh God-it's gross.
And I caught my appearance in a mirror today-Then I started counting kcals, I just want to loose again-I just want to stop feelin' like constantly scratching my skin. I have to get rid of this feeling inside.
Not sure what to say but try to stay strong. You don't need to lose, there's nothing wrong with your appearence, i know you might not be able to see that but it's true. Sorry you feel so triggered, try and release these feelings in other ways, you are really strong and i know you can get through this. It's difficult when you can't believe your own advice but you need to understand you are not hopeless and deserve to get better. This reply isn't very helpful at all but i hope other people can give better replies. I haven't really talked to you much but i hope you're okay. Take care.
Sorry, I don't really have much advice but please don't feel guilty. It's always a lot easier to say something to someone than believe it yourself, even if you fully believe it for them. Wish I could say something of more help but sending you lots of hugs. Take care sweetie x
Sometimes the way in life seems cloudy...But remember, after the storm comes clear skies
I don't really know what to say coz i'm kinda in the same place.
But just wanted you to know that your such a great person, i know we've like.. never talked lol. But i see you around all the time and your lovely.
Take care,
Ali xox
With demons dancing off mirror images reflecting all that you wanted.
So far from perfect, onward we will strive.
Take it for what it's worth, this truth that you've realized.
You're not who you thought you were, it's time to see the other side of what you have become.
I'm sorry you're going through a rough patch right now, and I'm sure that you don't want to hear all those 'it will get better' cliches- easier said than done, right? When you're really low, even though you know the bad thoughts aren't very rational and that you should try to stay positive, its really hard to believe that.
But hang on in there. As horrible as you feel, the cliches are true- there will be a time when you dont feel like this any more. There will be a time when you feel really good again. Your brain is full of bad thoughts, but its depression putting them there- they aren't real. You don't need to lose weight, you don't need to hurt yourself, you aren't ugly.
Try and take a few deep breaths and keep reassuring yourself that you will get through this- even if you're not sure you believe it. Say it out loud to yourself if it helps. Try and distract yourself as much as possible and do anything that might make you feel better, like listening to music or reading. It might help to talk about how you're feeling with a counsellor or someone you trust so you can let all your emotions out.
Also, though it might seem irrelevant right now, your LOTR icon and your pic of Tracy ROCK. Just had to say it! Take care of yourself my dear, I'll be thinking of you.
Is there anything else but clichees I can say?
I don't really know what to say if not 'Everything will get better', *You'll get through this' and stuff.. I'm not meaning that those are not true..
I hope you will already feel even a little teeny tiny bit better.. It's a strart..
I can understand what is going on with you but I can't express it with words..
ow darling, im sorry your feeling so bad, how you feeling today after a nights rest?
try distract yourself, do something good for your self, have a nice hot bath or listen to some happy music.
this will pass darling, i know it sounds corny, but things will get better.
have you spoken to anybody in depth about the abuse? maybe that could be helpful. getting everything out could also help rid the feeling of him.
take care of yourself
if you want to talk im here
much love
xxxx
Robyn, I can totally understand how you're feeling, even though I probably can't be much help at the moment.
You won't believe me, but you are so beautiful and you don't need to lose weight. You're amazing as you are xxxx
It's always a hell of alot easier to give advice then to take it, that's about the only advise i can give! Just to let you know i've always got an open ear and i'm thinking of you. Lots of hugs.
On a long enough time line, the survival rate for everyone drops to zero.
