Triggering (SI) - The Holidays

[wicked]

Everything just feels empty. I haven't cut since August-- I want to. Terribly, but I can't justifiy it. I don't know how to explain it. I miss it, I miss hurting myself, I don't want to die. My life feels empty without self injury. I guess cutting helped me cope, but it was a sense of pleasure; it was fufilling. Some people take a bubble bath, I cut myself.

Its just so fucked up. When I cut myself I don't feel disappointed, I am upset because I have disapointed the people I care about.

Jesus, I just miss it. Every fucking part. My arms are always itchy now. Its all I think about. I can't go back, I can't. Everyone this its so unhealthy, and I susppose it is. But I NEED it. Its killing me.

The Holidays feel empty without it.

[the_seventh_son]

heya i no how i feels about dispointing other people, i feel the same, but really they're not to disapointed in you, they would rather now and help u combat it than leaving u suffer and feel like shit,

u've done incredibally well since august well done!!! but urges are always goin to be there its only natural, it may help to talk to someone, like a friend etc, about y u have these urges and if there is anything that can be done to reduce, and eventually they will go

take care and feel free to pm me if u ever need to chat etc

[Neon.]

Hun, I know you feel like it, but you don't need self harm. You've done brilliantly so far!
If a slip up happens it happens, but recovery doesn't have to end because of it.
Is there any reason for feeling like this?
No one would be disappointed, more they would be worried about you and want you to be 100% well.
Take care xxx