Triggering (SI) - Doctors appointment *update*

[~*forever_broken*~]

Some of you may remember I recently had my SI 'discovered' when I had to go in and have a cut looked at. I had to go in and see the GP again today so he could try and convince me one more time to go on antidepressent meds. It wasn't as bad as I thought it would be (thank God). He's not happy with my decision to abstain, wants me to excercise regularly (evadently that can have a similar effect, though I'm sure not as good) and see the counselor I talked to on Friday. Oh, and if I just wanted to stop in on a Friday (when he is working this summer) and 'say hi' (read 'let him know I'm still alive') that would be good too, but I don't have to. Well, I can do most of that... don't know if I'll make it to say 'hello' but we shall see.
Now I can go home and just stew untill I can make a counseling appointment...
Take care all.
Alyssa

[Margo]

Give the counselling some SERIOUS thought. Theres no shame in it and its there to help you. Lots of us have it and need it. It can really make alot of difference.

As for the meds........well if you feel you dont need em then great but dont rule out the thought completely. We all need a little "extra" help from time to time.

Im sure that whatever youdecide it will be the right thing for you!

Take care
and Good Luck!

Matthew xxx

[chocostashchick]

aww that's sort of cute that the doctor cares so much - he must be a good guy maybe you could "drop by to say hi" or whatever

and i will echo what you told me
and say give the counselor a shot - lol if only we could both take our own advice, huh?
maybe you could also try to ask about meds and at least learn what the options are and what the side effects are, that is if you dont already know. you might as well find out what it is all about before you completely rule it out.

(this is so funny though because i am probably similar thinking-wise to you because i would NEVER agree to the meds either, at least not right now, and i wouldnt even want to hear one thing about them, but at the same time i know that might not be the smartest stance to take and here i am telling you to at least learn about it..... wow i'm crazy arent i)

[Destinationzero]

I would give counseling some thought at least. I've thought about it many times but never had the guts to actually walk through the door. You don't have to be forced onto antidepressants or whatever but it could be a consideration. I'm glad you're doing alright though. If my GP ever saw my scars he would probably freak. Good luck though...and have fun with your stew lol

*throws in carrots and potatos*

[pea soup]

*agrees with all above*
sorry...got nothing more..
*snuggles*
much love
xx

[~*forever_broken*~]

Hey all, thanks. Yeah, I'm seriously considering the counseling. Trouble is I've got about a week and a half to convince myself that things really aren't so bad and I'd be a fraud to go (something that I am very good at). So we shall see. Ugh, I'm so fed up I cnat even tell you how I'm feeling any more (which makes it easier to talk myself out of counseling)! Like, most of the day I feel like ****, but there are bits of it where I feel almost normal (well, normal for me anyway). Good lord, either let me sink compleatly into this hovering depression or let me return to the blah that is my dysthymic life, for heaven sake.
Opps, a little rant. It's just driving me nuts.
Thanks again all.
Alyssa