What’s wrong with me?

[Stephkrebs12]

Hi everyone, as I am writing this I am currently crying my eyes out. I don’t know what’s wrong with me. I have been feeling depressed & my anxiety has worsened to the point where I have a panic attack several times a week. Some times several times per day. I am feeling lonely and I long for friendship yet I tend to push people away and not because I don’t like them but because I just feel like I can’t connect with them & they don’t understand me. I’m indifferent to everything and just don’t really care about anything. I also get in moods where I just need to be alone because too much human interaction drains me. Also I just feel like people don’t care about what I have to say or my thoughts and opinions so I prefer to just not say anything. I made the move to see a therapist. Hopefully it helps. 😥

[nonperson]

Well done for seeing a therapist, that's a big brave step and I'm sure it will help.

I can understand some of what you've written there, especially about people and loneliness and human interaction. You're not alone in feeling that way and your opinions are certainly just as valid as anyone else's. It sounds like you just need a bit more self confidence to realise that people do care what you have to say.

Is there anything at all you can think of that you're not indifferent to? What sort of things did you used to enjoy doing?

[Stephkrebs12]

I used to enjoy hanging out with friends, making new friends, making people laugh and I used to be so talkative but now I dread the idea of going anywhere because I feel like I have to put up this facade that I’m this person I used to be. But now all I really wanna do is be at home by myself. I don’t wanna feel like this anymore :/

[Amaranth]

I'm low on words right now, but I can really relate