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OCD I really need help
Hi, I am 19 year old, male and i really need help. I am at point of my life where i am going for my dreams goals in life and i really got good idea of how I am going for future, etc.
But recently since about some months ago i masturbated, it was more because I was curious I did it, not because I like it but it does feel good but I know there are better things to enjoy in life (such as things i enjoy doing,more things to do, etc. Also, I am romantic too, I like watching romantic movies,books (kiss scene are good) without any sexual things, etc.) And masturbate is just little feel good for little minute n will go away n actually body energy feel weak so masterbating pleasure is nothing for me n i can and have go for more than 1 month and forever without masturbating and I want to and was going to quit masturbating forever.
However what start happening was that I start counting each time I do masturbate because thoughts i never used to have before start to happen, to end my masturbate in number that is not 3,6,7,9 and now also their multiples.
Now, the number of masturbate i did, count have been up to like 40, many things happened. ( there are more things to tell about this problem but I will tell this much for now)
I really need help. this problem has wasted time, months of my life and more time will be wasted if I do nothing about it because since this thing start happening my daily life has given hard time by this problem. It has made me think about it everyday. And because of it, many things,activities,fun, self improvement,etc, i should be having thought of and doing in my life right now I am not doing it.
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