Bipolar management of symptoms

[Arienette]

I am really quite struggling to manage my symptoms lately.

Last week saw the end of a definitive hypo episode. I did some regrettable things, I drank and smoked and all that in excess. Barely slept. My partner said I was being delusional about my abilities and stuff - but she said it at the time and I got raging angry at her.

Then I got angry with everyone and so stayed in my room to avoid trouble. I was very upset that day. For one day amongst all the high energy overly happy days - which is odd. Is that usual? Or maybe mixed? I have no idea.

I tried to kill myself, managed to just cut off feeling from part of my ear instead.

Then I was all dancing and that again.

On Thursday or so I crashed. I was incredibly slow and my cc spoke to me and was asking if I'd od'd on X again (I hadn't. I was just that slow)

I've picked up after 2 days of exhaustion and I don't know if I'm at a new normal or still slightly high

Any indicators I can ask myself to check in? I'm sleeping slightly less than usual but more than the 3-4 hours I was.

I've been using DBT mechanisms to pass time and try to wait it out when I crashed. Now I'm, still goal orientated and super productive and my mind is fast but I'm not sure if this is just the best of my normal right now?

It's so easy to know when you're down. And hard to know when you're up.

[bitomato]

Tomorrow is another day. Going into one myself.....so relating unfortunately.....

[Arienette]

Well this turned into a hot mess.

Currently Ip. Don't remember coming in but I apparently agreed to informal so here I am.

It's been helpful to be here this time.

It's helped calm my access to unhealthy ways of calming chaos (substance and drinking)

Should be discharged soon. Had a med increase in quetiapine, hope it settles me some more bc the 200 already helped some. I'm quite confident that quetiapine will work for me at the right dosage.

Feeling positive despite being Ip etc.
Have unescorted leave from today.

Having more periods of calm which is a good sign. Hoping to get level before I go abroad on holiday on the 17th.

Have a lot of motivation to engage and to get well. My gf is amazing and really is he greatest carrot for welllness I could ever have.

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[Steel Maiden]

How is the quetiapine going?