So I had to go on generic medication because I did not have enough money for the brand. Even my psychiatrist did not want me taking the generic as I am in a completely new setting....
Initially it wasn't so bad- the anxiety levels, feelings of being overwhelmed and other things seemed explainable by my bad habits and previous coping methods.
However, I have been completely been triggered and unable to return to normal, and I am catastrophising big time about not getting a new health care provider, running out of meds, being "found out" by my new landlord (because I have a mental illness I am afraid they will kick me out), and keep thinking that my family want me to fail and return home where I'll have no job, no place to live, no hope......
I thought moving on campus would make things better, but now I feel like I am a failure. Even when I do well.....I cannot feel achievement.
I know part of it is that I am depressed- the generic isn't working like the brand....I should not be this low. I am not motivated to exercise......and my chronic pain flare ups are out of hand. I have days off where I kind of have to ride out the brain fog but it is even becoming spring and I cannot leave the house.....
I am scared.....
~Happy tomatoes together we will be~
You say toe- may- toe, I say toe- mah- toe:
Let's call the whole thing- red
“It’s time to lead the third revolution, which is not to say we want to be at the top of the world, but to say we want to change the world. Because the way the world has been designed by men is not working. It’s not working for women, it’s not working for men,
it’s not working for polar bears.” Arianna Huffington 2014
so.......I just found out 2 months on that I have been on the wrong dosage for the generic- because it does not act the same way as the brand.
Very frustrated because that means I have been struggling unnecessarily for a long time. Now it will take a while for levels to adjust back to therapeutic amounts.....
I don't know what to do- if to tell someone at school or get medical leave or something......
~Happy tomatoes together we will be~
You say toe- may- toe, I say toe- mah- toe:
Let's call the whole thing- red
“It’s time to lead the third revolution, which is not to say we want to be at the top of the world, but to say we want to change the world. Because the way the world has been designed by men is not working. It’s not working for women, it’s not working for men,
it’s not working for polar bears.” Arianna Huffington 2014
If you feel medical leave will help then go for it.
It's better to take time to adjust to meds and let them start working efficiently if you can as it is stressful enough being unwell- and at the wrong dosage.
If you're able to take a few weeks to adjust and get yourself back on track, I always say do it. Good luck
I agree. These things need time and space to settle. You need a time of calm and concentration in getting better. Having a medical break is a great idea.
Sophie.x
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I decided to pre- empt and disclose to my university advisor that I am having challenges. I was trying not to get any academic considerations, but I feel as though I am shutting down. Sometimes I get a lot of work done and other times like this morning- it takes me 3 hours to pack breakfast, lunch, and get out of the house to the library.....
I am supposed to be working- but all my brain will let me do is exist......
It is like waiting for the fog to clear before I can leave the dock......
I've been doing well attending class, but zilch with reading and even more water from a stone trying to get assignments completed.
I was ahead of everyone in the first couple of weeks and then I shut down. Anxiety is worst, followed by lack of self- confidence, and negativity.
~Happy tomatoes together we will be~
You say toe- may- toe, I say toe- mah- toe:
Let's call the whole thing- red
“It’s time to lead the third revolution, which is not to say we want to be at the top of the world, but to say we want to change the world. Because the way the world has been designed by men is not working. It’s not working for women, it’s not working for men,
it’s not working for polar bears.” Arianna Huffington 2014
I know with Lithium you have to be careful about getting the same brand each time. I don't know about other meds though but I assume there are others.
This is why;
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Each time you collect a prescription, check to make sure you have been supplied with the same brand of lithium as usual. If your tablets/medicine look different to before, ask your pharmacist to check it out for you. This is because the amount of lithium released from the different brands of lithium varies, so it is important that you keep to the same brand as you have had previously.
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It has to do with how the medication is released- extended release (XR) vs. not. Also brand: Effexor vs. venlafaxine. Annoyingly it was partly me not being able to afford medications so I got the venlafaxine without checking back with my doctor. The pharmacist incorrectly told me there was no difference.
However, I needed to take the dosage differently because it was not extended release. When I finally checked back with my psychiatrist after 2 months- they were like yeah you were not taking a therapeutic amount.
Annoyingly, I cannot get any assistance from school- but more annoyingly being told that it was my fault that I didn't apply for any additional assistance.
It is like putting your clothes in the washing machine and forgetting to put them in the dryer- and having to rewash them....and put them in the dryer.
The person could have said: hey don't forget your clothes in the washing machine- but I would STILL have to put them in the dryer MYSELF.
In other words I am still doing a challenging course, with an insensitive instructor at an unsupportive university. I should quit. But I haven't......
My medication is sorted now.....so I just have to keep plodding on.
But yeah- I should not have to do the job of the pharmacist, doctor etc and stay on top of things.....but not feeling supported is nothing new...:(
~Happy tomatoes together we will be~
You say toe- may- toe, I say toe- mah- toe:
Let's call the whole thing- red
“It’s time to lead the third revolution, which is not to say we want to be at the top of the world, but to say we want to change the world. Because the way the world has been designed by men is not working. It’s not working for women, it’s not working for men,
it’s not working for polar bears.” Arianna Huffington 2014
