Dissociation and kind of paralysis

[my_smile_is_fake]

Hello,

So I have struggled with dissociation for like 10 years now. But the other evening during therapy I dissociated, but differently - I couldn't control my body.
I wasn't able to actively move. I couldn't turn to look around, I couldn't stand up and couldn't un-link my hands. I was able to move my legs and my hands were stretching/ squeezing each other, so I wasn't paralysed. ButI just couldn't control me. I was semi aware of it all where usually my body is aware, but my mind kind of turns off. But this time was almost the opposite. All I wanted to do was shout that I wasn't aware or in control and was scared. But I just couldn't do anything.

Anyone had this before or know whats going on?

Thank you kindly
xx

[Uglyducklin]

Hugs I'm so sorry that sounds distressing. I agree with epic that it should be investigated in case it has a medical cause but not ruling out dissociation either . Good luck

[my_smile_is_fake]

Cool thanks guys. I mentioned it to physiatrist this morning, and she thinks it could be the same. So need to get seen by a neuro team :'(

[Uglyducklin]

Hope it goes well . I'm so sorry to hear this.

[my_smile_is_fake]

And my lovely psychologist also thinks this is worth following through. It hadn't crossed her mind, but she says it could make sense of some of what is going on.

And now its scaring me :/