Hospital Assessment?

[b4mbi]

*trigger warning for suicidal thoughts/behaviours as well as violent thoughts*


So yesterday I had an assessment done with my local CMHT. This is coincidentally the first time I have ever had a decent experience with them. The nurse was wonderful, listened seriously to my experience and actually explained that from what doctor's and psychiatrists letters she had available, I likely have Emotionally Unstable Personality Disorder.

We went pretty in depth, talking about the voices I hear telling me to self-harm/kill myself/kill my family by stabbing etc., as well as how they would help me plan how to do these things. I'm actively suicidal as of this moment and still looking for ways to die. My parents were in attendance and expressed that whilst they loved and supported me (which I know they do) that they had my younger sister and their own safety to think about, and currently they feel I need intensive 24/7 support until I'm more stable. The nurse agreed there was serious risk of harm to both myself and my family.

We left, and the nurse made phone calls to see what should happen, and if inpatient was a possibility. This resulted in me being assessed later on today at home with the same nurse and a person from the hospital. My question is, what would the exact nature of the assessment be? If I were to be voluntarily admitted, how would it happen?

Big long-winded I know, but I like to provide context.

[b4mbi]

Voices are getting louder

[Buttons.]

I would take whatever help you are offered with open hands. They will probably just listen to what you have to say and act according to what they feel is the most healthy course of action. No one can predict the length of hospital stay if that is what they decide is best, however beds are in short supply so they won't keep you any longer than necessary.

[b4mbi]

Thank you for the comment! Yes after long discussion my family and I feel that inpatient is best at this moment in time. I'm leaving for the ward soon.

[[Luna]]

I really hope the ward helps you. Have you been inpatient before?
How are you feeling?

[sherlock holmes]

I hope your admission goes well and you learn some coping skills while you are there. I always find it best to agree to do whatever the doctors and nurses suggest in hospital as they have your best interests in mind. And talk to the nurses about how you feel, don't bottle anything up!

[stumpy]

I can feel empathy towards you're situation, I have struggled with similar thoughts and behaviour in the past, and went inpatient voluntarily too, at first it's a bit scary, but it did really help me, so I hope it helps you too, and that you learn some positive coping strategies whilst there. This opportunity could also be used to try medications to see if they can find something that helps, whilst you're in a stable and safe environment.

Good luck, I'm glad you're parents are supportive, and realised that they have to be strong to help you, mine found it hard to realise, the danger they were in, and it took an attempt on my own life and for the Psych Social Workers, and Police as well as doctors to decide, that I needed to be inpatient, and when I agreed, they were upset as they felt like they'd failed, it took me a long time to explain to them they hadn't, and they too are very supportive, despite being upset at the time.

You're very lucky you're parents are so understanding and understand the danders they were in, and did what they needed to help you without the intervention of professionals, going inpatient is a brave move, you should be proud of you're self, for realising that you needed to be in hospital, let us know how you get on, I hope they can help you feel better, and ease the violent and suicidal thoughts, as you deserve to be happy, and I'm sure you're family would love to see you happy too

I'm not sure what you have on the ward, but during my last stay something that helped me was art therapy and talking with OT's in the activity room, maybe there's something similar at you're ward, it's a great way to express you're feelings, and like others have said don't hold anything back, let it out, things can get better, *hugs*

[b4mbi]

Thank you all for the kind comments. I was lucky and got a bed the same day I posted this and was only discharged on Thursday. I can honestly say that both the diagnosis and the stay at inpatient has been incredibly positive for me; I was scared at first but opened up and built a routine for myself inside which always helps stabilise me. I'm being seen everyday by my CPN and I'm also seeing the re-ablement team, who was also my occupational therapist whilst in hospital! Things are a lot more stable now and I'm feeling more hopeful about managing my BPD. :)