Depression

[Emilie.]

I know I should be all happy, being on holiday and everything. Especially with the London trip with my boyfriend coming up. Don't get me wrong, I am really happy about those things, truly. Yet the depression is nagging there at the back of my mind. There are all these little things, that just add up. How my parents sometimes complain that if I weren't going on the trip with them, it'd been cheaper, or the fact that I eat way more than usual here and haven't even worked out in almost two weeks. I feel unwanted, alone, and utterly disgusted with myself. Shouldn't I be happier about all the nice things in my life? I am healthy, I got into the school I applied for and am even nominated as school president, I have a boyfriend I love and friends who care about me. Everything I was longing for before, that I thought would make me happy, I have all those things. Yet they don't make me happy as I thought they would. Everything is going my way except my own mind.

[lilred]

I think there's a difference between unhappiness and depression. You sound genuinely grateful and content for all the good things in your life, but you also acknowledge that depression is stealing your opportunity to fully enjoy those things. On Saturday I went cliff jumping with some of my best friends. It should have been fun, I should have loved it, but I didn't. I couldn't enjoy it no matter how hard i tried to just forget about the depression and have fun. If you're not on medication, I would consider seeing a dr, since it sounds like you're trying to be positive about your life, but your brain isn't allowing you to.

[Pi.R^2]

As above I'd suggest seeing a doctor to see if you can be offered medication and/or counselling. I'm in a similar boat currently, knowing that there's so much to be happy about but not feeling able to fully enjoy it because of low mood, so i know how frustrating it can be!

With regards to your parents, can you speak to them about how their comments are impacting on you?

[yoyogirl]

How about changing your routine if that helps? i find only turning up to my groups once a fortnight really helps simply because i find them boring, pathetic and there's no point in going. Obviously you cannot change your school schedule and things such as regular sports groups, but other things you can move about. If you are studying for an important exam/doing coursework, move to quiet coffee shop or a countryside park cafe.

How about watching something that's really engaging and interesting on netflix or sky? But definitely avoid the daytime tv. Save the daytime tv for when you have the flu or feel groggy/tired.

[arialgrande]

Sometimes I am in the same situation like you. I fed up with everything and don't want to meet anyone. This feeling is normal and you don't need to worry about that because no one is happy and satisfied all the time. I think you should spend time for yourself such as going to the cinema alone, going around and taking photos...they can make you feel better and refresh yourself. You can also share with your parents or your best friend about your problem, they will understand considerably.