I was just wondering if anyone else has been under the care of a CRHT team? I really feel like I'm the only one and it's making me feel a bit down and like I messed up.
I've had depression as long as I remember, but to varying intensities over the years, and was under the care of CAMHS when I was younger but managed to stay out of the mental health system for a number of years. Then I had a big relapse and everything ended up crashing in on me and now I have CRHT visiting me every few days in my home and to bring me meds. Currently on fluoxetine and Zopiclone. The Zopiclone is a life saver. When things get unbearable I can just knock myself out.
I'm 20 and just about to finish my degree. I just really wish this wasn't happening again. I haven't told my parents, my mum didn't cope with it well last time. But it means I'm largely alone with this.
In some areas the team is known by HTT which might be what more people class it as
Being under crisis help doesn't mean you have messed up, it means you are going through a hard time and are trying really hard to change things. I understand how lonely it can be not being able to tell people about how you are doing. My parents don't know about my mental issues either for the same reason. Do you have any friends you could confide in?
I have been under them but tbh I don't find them useful. In fact it's written in my ctp that I prefer to go into the local psych unit than have them.
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In some areas the team is known by HTT which might be what more people class it as
Being under crisis help doesn't mean you have messed up, it means you are going through a hard time and are trying really hard to change things. I understand how lonely it can be not being able to tell people about how you are doing. My parents don't know about my mental issues either for the same reason. Do you have any friends you could confide in?
Do you find the CRHT team helpful?
Thanks for your reply. I have told some of my friends but I guess they're kinda distant. I have friends who are messaging me and checking I'm ok, but they're all old friends who I don't live near anymore. I don't think my friends here really understand. My best friend has barely messaged me or spoken to me since this happened and when she did it was just "you'll feel better soon". She didn't understand really. So I have told friends but really they're not giving me that much support. Perhaps I just have to ask for it, but I don't want to cause trouble.
I am finding the CRHT team useful. It's good to have someone I can call any time of day or night and knowing there is someone coming to chatto me every few days. I suppose there's also some confirmation there that I wasn't making this up all along. It is serious and what I feel is being taken seriously. It never was in CAMHS, even when I tried to attempt suicide.
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I have been under them but tbh I don't find them useful. In fact it's written in my ctp that I prefer to go into the local psych unit than have them.
I've never been in an inpatient psych ward. Have been considering it though but it means telling my family etc. Why do you find that more helpful?
I find it more useful because you can talk to the nurses for as long as you want as often as you want. I never had the same person twice with the htt and at least with going IP you have fewer staff changes. I also find it really hard to have strangers in my home.
Also IP there's very few expectations. As long as you take your meds and don't kick off/escape/od/si you're left alone. With htt if they come at 2 pm you're expected to talk then
If you don't feel like talking then (as what happened with me) they get annoyed and worried about you. If you feel like talking at 4 pm there's no opportunity. At least if you don't talk to staff they don't get annoyed. Also you get to meet with your psych and cc (albeit once a week) which might not be possible outside IP. Also htt is not 24 hours in my area whereas with IP there's always someone to talk to regardless of time of day. I struggle most at night and that is when I need the most support.
The only downside is boredom because there's very little to do except watch TV. Also the food may suck - last time I was IP they had mashed potatoes twice a day. I soon got fed up of mashed potatoes!
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"He who is tired of Weird Al is tired of life." - Homer Simpson "I hear those voices that will not be drowned" Sanity is a nasty disease. The world would be a happier place without it. - Rilic
RIP Kat 4th July 1987- 11th June 2013
the best thing is make use of their services, things they suggest you do and if they offer you the option of going inpatient then take it, never take the long and painful way in.
Have you ever confused a dream with life? Or stolen something when you have the cash? Have you ever been blue? Or thought your train moving while sitting still? Maybe I was just crazy. Maybe it was the 60's. Or maybe I was just a girl... interrupted.
I know what it's like to want to die. How it hurts to smile. How you try to fit in but you can't. How you hurt yourself on the outside to try to kill the thing on the inside. I tried groups, didn't work out just made my depression a lot worse.
I find it more useful because you can talk to the nurses for as long as you want as often as you want. I never had the same person twice with the htt and at least with going IP you have fewer staff changes. I also find it really hard to have strangers in my home.
Also IP there's very few expectations. As long as you take your meds and don't kick off/escape/od/si you're left alone. With htt if they come at 2 pm you're expected to talk then
If you don't feel like talking then (as what happened with me) they get annoyed and worried about you. If you feel like talking at 4 pm there's no opportunity. At least if you don't talk to staff they don't get annoyed. Also you get to meet with your psych and cc (albeit once a week) which might not be possible outside IP. Also htt is not 24 hours in my area whereas with IP there's always someone to talk to regardless of time of day. I struggle most at night and that is when I need the most support.
The only downside is boredom because there's very little to do except watch TV. Also the food may suck - last time I was IP they had mashed potatoes twice a day. I soon got fed up of mashed potatoes!
With CRHT in my area they have a 24 hour crisis line. Like you I struggle most at night but I can call their crisis line as I did at 3am the other night. But yeah I know what you mean about sometimes just not being bothered to talk. At the moment I'm trying to push through and finish my degree so as long as I can keep out of inpatient the next week and a half I'm fine.
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the best thing is make use of their services, things they suggest you do and if they offer you the option of going inpatient then take it, never take the long and painful way in.
I am really trying to make use of it and tell them everything I think and feel even when that means telling them about suicidal thoughts or thoughts of self-harm. I was already very guarded about that with CAMHS years ago. But I don't want to be like this anymore and am really trying.
It sounds like you're trying really hard to work with them, and I think that's great. I know it isn't always easy but it will give you the best chance of getting through this as quickly as possible and being able to move forwards. And you can, it gets better! You didn't mess up, it's not your fault. Struggling with your mental health doesn't mean you've done anything wrong. I understand it can be a really isolating experience though. But you're not alone. Lots of people here will be able to relate to what you're going through at the moment.
As tiptoes said, it's just called HTT where I am, and I was with them for a bit last year. I didn't appreciate it at the time and I wasn't able to work with them too well, but in retrospect I can see that it was helpful, and it kept me out of hospital, which for me was a positive thing.
With friends, sometimes people don't really know what to say or how to help; it doesn't mean they don't care though. Do you know what they could do that would help you? e.g. do you need them to listen, or would it help to just spend some time together doing something that you usually enjoy? Sometimes if you're able to let people know what they can do for you, it really helps.
How is uni going? Trying to finish your degree on top of everything else must be pretty difficult. Wishing you all the best with it!
I hope you're doing as okay as possible and managing to take care of yourself.
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Stay alive, feed yourself well, wear comfortable clothes, and don't give up on yourself just yet.
It'll get better. Until then, have a day."
It sounds like you're trying really hard to work with them, and I think that's great. I know it isn't always easy but it will give you the best chance of getting through this as quickly as possible and being able to move forwards. And you can, it gets better! You didn't mess up, it's not your fault. Struggling with your mental health doesn't mean you've done anything wrong. I understand it can be a really isolating experience though. But you're not alone. Lots of people here will be able to relate to what you're going through at the moment.
As tiptoes said, it's just called HTT where I am, and I was with them for a bit last year. I didn't appreciate it at the time and I wasn't able to work with them too well, but in retrospect I can see that it was helpful, and it kept me out of hospital, which for me was a positive thing.
With friends, sometimes people don't really know what to say or how to help; it doesn't mean they don't care though. Do you know what they could do that would help you? e.g. do you need them to listen, or would it help to just spend some time together doing something that you usually enjoy? Sometimes if you're able to let people know what they can do for you, it really helps.
How is uni going? Trying to finish your degree on top of everything else must be pretty difficult. Wishing you all the best with it!
I hope you're doing as okay as possible and managing to take care of yourself.
Thanks so much for your reply. I am really trying just it's been so many years now. There have been periods where things have been better but my mental health has effected me in ways that effect my relationships and then make me unhappy... It feels like an endless cycle.
I feel like I'm wasting their time. I have people to vent too- my old friends from where my parents live. But I think what I really need right now is just getting out the house and trying to do things I would have enjoyed.
Uni is okay. I decided I wanted to carry on and try and finish because I'm in my final year. When I relapsed I had only 4 exams left and I just want to get them done and feel like I'm moving on in my life. Luckily I just need to pass these exams to graduate with a decent grade because I've done well in the past few years. I can't focus as well on my revision as I could when my mental health was better, but I'd prefer to get a respectable grade and graduate and move on than postpone it for a year and get a really good grade.
I'm actually pretty nervous of finishing my exams in a week and a half. Since I relapsed I've had something to try and put all my energy and strength in. Not sure I'm going to know what to do with myself after that. And perhaps there will be less to distract me from the thoughts.
