Feeling down

Arienette · 12-04-2016, 12:31 PM

I'm feeling really down at the moment.

I don't know why but I just feel depressed and getting a lot of self doubt

I could just do with some hugs and support.

I keep wanting to od to cope with it and just check out of life for awhile.

X

Fire Fly · 12-04-2016, 01:01 PM

Could it be because you've started volunteering and training for the tough mudder?
It's horrible to feel down but are self soothing and rewarding yourself when you do things? X

Uglyducklin · 12-04-2016, 01:03 PM

Hugs I am so sorry you are hurting xx

Ballerina123 · 12-04-2016, 01:23 PM

Is there any reason you feel so low?
Do you know what has helped in the past when uou have felt like this?

Arienette · 12-04-2016, 01:32 PM

It could be the volunteering thing and feeling overwhelmed by tough mudder. I just want to stay in bed all the time. Is the only place I seem to feel safe.

X

Arienette · 12-04-2016, 06:00 PM

Quote:

Do you know what has helped in the past when uou have felt like this?

Right now i can't think of what has helped me in the past, i just feel so overwhelmed by rubbishness and the overriding urge to binge eat everything and anything just to chop down my emotions and feelings.

which is upsetting me further.

i just want to OD.

Arienette · 13-04-2016, 06:11 PM

My therapist said I'm not trying at therapy and that I'm too busy trying to make everyone else look after me to be making any progress. Like what?

Seriously I can't wait for her to leave. What's she even talking about.

I see my cc on Friday. I don't even want to see her because I don't want her to start harping on the same bullshit.

Seriously.

As if I don't feel crap enough already.

Serendipity. · 13-04-2016, 06:48 PM

I'm sorry you had a difficult session with your therapist, that sounds painful. Did she explain why she thought that was the case? Is it something you could try to work through with her?

I can understand just wanting to stay in bed when you feel low. Does it ever help to try to do some nice things for yourself - watching a favourite film, having a bath, painting your nails, whatever? It's great that you're trying to do things like volunteering, I know it can feel overwhelming. Are you able to plan your time to include commitments like that and balance it with time where you can relax and have time for yourself? Sometimes roughly planning out my time like that helps me, since then even if it gets difficult, I know I have time coming up where I won't be under any pressure.

Arienette · 14-04-2016, 10:57 AM

Because I go to a&e when in crisis. Which is a difficult topic of debate for me because it took them years to get m to go to a&e when in crisis and now I'm being criticised for going.

I haven't been for like 7 week by the wayann last time I needed my cuts dressing and sealing with glue.

So she is chatting ****.

I constantly feel attacked by her.

I have a interview for another voluntary role on Monday. And one comin up in May. She says my mood changes are really quick which isn't true. I think she is reading me wrong.

It's like she is constantly shooting me down.

Arienette · 14-04-2016, 11:21 AM

I can't stop thinkin About suicide again.

It's like everything I do isn't good enough.

I try and I try.

zombiehunter · 14-04-2016, 11:51 AM

hey sorry to hear things are rough for you, what does your voluntary work involve doing?? I do voluntary work as well and it can be really helpful and fulfilling and also be a good distraction and give you something to look forward to and keep you occupied but there are times when you have to take a step back and take care of your own needs.

Also you're training for a tough mudder that's pretty hardcore even I wouldn't do oen of those