Panic attacks

[Kathryn_Anna]

How long do they usually last? How do you cope? I had two last week on back to back days. Hubby was out of town and I just wasn't doing well. I tried texting him during the first attack and the important thing I got out of our convo was "Is it really that serious?" Sure enough had another panic attack the next night. Ever since then I've felt really on edge and like I could have another attack at any moment. I'm so overwhelmed and I'm not sure hubby fully gets it. Until last week I've done pretty well on my own without meds but now I just feel like I can't live like this. What if I have a panic attack when my kids aren't sleeping, I'm alone with them, and they see? I've tried grounding myself but it doesn't seem to work much. I think the stresses of life are catching up with me and then add a wasp in my house (twice) it just set me over the top. Now I'm so panicked that every time my front door is left open another will fly in. I have totally irrational thoughts and I know they are irrational but yet they feel so rational. That make any sense? Heck, I'm getting all worked up just talking about having a panic attack. Ugh.

[Kathryn_Anna]

No medication. I've done fairly well without but I'm thinking I need to try them now. Not sure I can cope much longer.

My kids are 9, 2, and 4 months. The older two get quiet time but maybe not enough for the older one. I should work on that.

I probably need to have a talk with hubby again. It had been over a year since my last panic attack so I'm sure he was a bit caught off guard. At the end of the first night he said "everything's OK, why are you still crying?" I need to think about what is helpful and safe to say. I wish he could just hug me tight until I'm calmed back down.